Góc Riêng

I have missed the last chance to show my real feelings to her. Whatever happens then, I dunno. If I can do something now, it is just a stupid doing. I cannot live in the past, even it is full of good memories. The things I lost in the past, looking back, it is a kind of lesson for the future; they are the good old days in my heart as well. Hugging and holding hands are good but no one will understand the feelings of each other. I wish you could know what I wanna say.

The day you left, you made me feel empty for a long time. It was a point when I had to prepare well for the entrance university exam. Even it looked like I fell in love with a cute girl, but the real one I liked was you, it is true now, not only for those sad days. When you were not beside me, I felt how important you were to me. It is a pupil love, if someone calls it like that, simple and stupid but more real than any kind of love I get later.

Two years or four years, even six years, this love still exists. Nothing can ruin my feelings because bad memories are always added into good ones, in the dark corners in my soul. You were a friend of mine, one cute classmate. We had time spending on fighting or arguing so much. The time we were together, you would never know how I thought of you. I will keep these secrets and never show them to others. If you can see something, you would think that is of another story.

The chances I lost, I cannot take them back. What I can do is digging them all and think of other girls I will meet. They may be cool, ***y, smart or sensitive. Whoever they are, whatever they have, they are nothing compared to a girl I fell in love when I was a young boy. People can live without food and drinks, just because they have things to care about and dare to die for that. If I can do a part of that, I would be here and there looking around and wondering where the hell is that? It is because we live in a real life and I have to come back to a normal life after one confusing week beside you. Wanna kiss you deeply and hold you so tightly as if I would never let you go. Gemini is a kind of guy who live in the past but always go straight to the end of the road, where they know they would get nothing. They do it since they feel exciting and it is worth trying. Sometimes, they sit down and look back the trip they were in and wonder whether it is a stop for all. Now, I am in that sort of thoughts. It should be an end for my love story. 5 or 7 years later, if we can meet, I won't let you go that easily. Would I still think in that way? Maybe I will be still so energetic? A hard question for myself, right?

Some say the brotherhood between a man and a man is a kind of the good relationship in the world. Even, they are brothers, or just friends, it is still true, isn't it? For myself, I really don't trust this statement. The day one promises something, the day you feel that you can think of others as a true friend. No matter how long does it take one recover from a shock, it still happens to people one by one. They are my friends, and some brothers; we have time together and that's all. If I had a chance to take words back, and so did them, who would do that? Buddies? Brothers? Relatives? When I cannot trust them, they are as normal as other people. People argue against others for some ****, should they look at themselves in the mirror and see things from the opposite side? I have to do the same thing, both have to this sort of judgment. Getting in trouble is not a good way to grow up but, after that, people will be more experienced than they were in the past, it is a real experience. So, I like these contradictions, they make me feel better when I realize that I am now more mature than myself some years ago. The more contradictions are, the sadder you feel; but the worse time you have, the more mature you are. Just thanks to life that brings you the real stories of life. When it comes to you, you will be the one to face with all problems yourself but, that is, the way a person has to grow up in his way of life.

The targets I set a year earlier may have to be changed now, especially the way I judge them. These days, I am very confused about how can I achieve those aims without trying my best. Perhaps, the world I live now is a third world with corruption and pragmatism. People treat them bad because of several reasons, beneficial views included. If I were a powerful man with high social status and can support people around me, look at me, a real man. However, I am only a normal guy, no money, no power, no ****, etc. Which ways they are looking at me? People are ****ting on others. Where is a friendship? How do they feel and one relationship just has broken up or has taken shape? What a question, who knows? Building relationships with others, is a way I chose, as my parents always persuade me to have more friends when I will be in college, now it is the time, right? I have to keep continuing that way.

The deadline will come soon. 2 million this Saturday and now I have only 800,000VND. Oh my god, what a joke! How can I lend someone enough this weekend? God bless me, please.

Thôi xong rồi, rạp mở cửa 11h, con điên sẽ vào đây. Ôi, bao công sức mình viết ra nó sẽ đọc hết? HELL NO.
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4 other guys đang view với mình là who the hell are they?
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Oh my God, why did I show her this page? And now she can see all my thoughts. Is it cool? This way of showing the real thoughts and feelings to the one you fall in love, it is cool, huh? Maybe. Let's start a new relation, more special or closer, they all are good. It suits me.

Who the hell blocked FB, you ****ty! I cannot check some comments of my friends on some important topics I just created last night. I really want to view them and answer some questions. Oh my God. The solution from good people on the Internet doesn't work.
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My uncle has just called to remind me to pick my cousin up at 9pm. Tonight he will come back from America, I thought this chance is a last chance for him to meet his father. Hm, truly, I have to say that we all thought that he missed the chance in the previous trip in the middle of the year. We never knew that my uncle would live more than 3 months but he did. And he was calling me to say thanks for the blood I gave for him two weeks before. I with another cousin went to the hospital, the two sons blood types are O+ as my uncle, so luckily. 3 months for each blood donating time and the two in the next 3-month period must be one other cousin and the one I will be meeting tonight. What's wrong if my uncle needs more blood than that we can supply? This time he needed at least 600ml, oh my god, I hope he will suffer from this ****ing cancer. 53 is a bad number and if he can go through this year, 2 years plus for himself, as one future teller said. I have no choice but hope for that recovering. Remember When - this song makes me feel sad and happy at once, not only for love with a girl but also for love to my blood relatives. God bless you, my uncle. I am too shy to say something important to you but from the bottom of my heart, we all love you. We will remember the time we are smiling with each other, which we forgot some years ago, now we are taking smiles back to our normal live. It is a sad time for all but impressive and worth trying altogether, you know.

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I hope that it would be the first time and also the last time of my life to go with someone doing something like that. It is very scary not only for me but also for my friend. How can I know that it is that sort of threatening. Sorry for not being beside you at the right time, as I can do is standing there, with you, lonely and exhausted. I did not know that you had *****ffer this time. Sorry for not preventing you earlier, just because I only care about myself and forget your trouble.