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I should be with you right now. I know I have lost one more chance, but I always hope that you will come to me... what takes you so long??? Why just say it if you want it do you know I am missing you like crazy? Even now we're so close, I still can't touch you, can't feel you, can't call your name. I'm so scared... what will I do when you go? I want to run to you and stay in your arms, tell you that I love you sooooo much, It's been a year, I can't forget you but realize I love you more and more each and everyday... I want you more than anything in the whole world, I just can't think of what I' m gonna do without your love, it makes me feel dead when I think that you're in love with somebody. Am I so sensitive to think that you don't love me anymore? I'm mad at myself, why can I never get what I want??? All I can do now is to remember the time that we were together, when you were close to me and held my hand. I miss talking to you, I miss your sweet voice, when you told me that you missed me and never want to let me go... Were they all lies??? I don't have much time left and I have no clue about what I should do, I'm so scared and unconfident, I don't want you to go I'll be crazy without you..... tell me what to do