Boring Diary

I don''t know why. But it seems that sometimes I have to give away things to my friends. Things that i love or like the most. I hurt myself, always...
Don''t look toward to the things not belonging to you, dear OceanBorn. It''s not worth trying, it''s not worth keeping, it''s not worth fighting for.... Though you may think at first you can never set it aside...
Be strong oh lil girl of my own

Dear girl, just let it slip away. Don''''t pay any attention to it any more. If he is meant to be yours, then obviously he will return someday. If not, you can go look for other cuties around.
Though you love him, don''''t waste time on what you are not destined to get right this moment. Just let life goes on in its own way.
Now girl, smile and grin
Life is beautiful with its ups and downs. And the hurts are made to make you much stronger
Let love flow away, and walk on your own way to another direction. If you ever catch him again in that way, then he will be the person who wants you back, and keeps you tight in his arms so that both of you cannot step away from each other.
Believe, and live the life you''''re now heading. Everything will be alright. Now, smile girl, smile...smile...
Được oceanborn sửa chữa / chuyển vào 16:12 ngày 19/01/2006

There is a strange number in my cell missed call list. Someone might have been trying to call me when I was busy cooking the dinner. So bad! I always forget to bring the cell with me whenever I am in the kitchen. And i missed the call.
I don''t know who it might be, coz I have never seen this number before. But something deep inside is telling me that...it must have been him. It must have been him Oceanborn, it must have been him.... He''s here in this land, very near and so close to you little girl. He is here already. He has arrived ....

Are you crazy?
Don''t be so selfish, and don''t be so childish will you?

Don''''t ever think it that way... I do want to invite him to my house, I do want to prepare the lunch for the two of us. Simply... it''''s just what i want. I cannot do what i really long for. I don''''t understand myself. I cannot...
If only the neighbours and all the mess in my house which is now waiting to be cleaned and tidied up all disappeared within one afternoon only...then i would invite him straight to my house and i would cook the meal for him
Why? Why? Why?
Được oceanborn sửa chữa / chuyển vào 11:02 ngày 26/01/2006

Kidnap me, if that''s what you can do. Bring me to another place, if you dare to make our own destiny. Hold me forever, if you accept me....
And if love is evil, then just let it be...

Do things other than just messing around

Back off when you think you''re being way too intense.
Things will come and Time will tell. Whenever you think you''re in love with him, or feel for him, just simply turn over the page and read the words she wrote once ever again. Read until your heart''s bleeding and until it goes dry...then you will never have to feel anything for him...anything...
Love will flow with pains and hurts if you dare to let it flit by.
Dear OceanBorn, it''s not time for emotion and hearts, it''s time for Serenity and Tranquillity. You have been in search of those ones for long. Don''t ever risk your feeling and waste it on the one-way roads. It''s not worth trying.
Now, read those words again and again, let your heart be in pain until you feel nothing and fear nothing. Your heart will go stiff it will not be able to feel and not be able to be hurt anymore.
Back off! Forget it!

Hardening against​

It is raining outside.
Everytime it is raining, i feel sad and empty. This time is not exceptional. It hurts the most when Im not with you...
Suddenly thinks of the passing days. Wish i could get out of this mess. I dont want to love anyone more. Im so tired of love...Indeed I do feel bored, I do feel tired and i never want to wait or try, not any longer...