Boring Diary

Feeling lonely and empty
But im trying my best. I still keep trying

They say that he is not thinking of me rite this moment. I feel quite satisfied, and unsure at the same time. Sometimes i wish i could know if it is Love or just a Crush. I miss him, I do...
These days he goes ol without calling me first, which he once did with anxiety. Am i forgotten? Has he already given up? Has the love flitted by so quickly? But i still miss him so much, i do__
Something tells me to keep myself away from him for a few days, to know his reaction when he sees me again after quite a long time. I don''t know if he does miss me...but surely i will think of him so much...
7 days to know how he will react when he meets me again, and today is the first day i won''t talk to him.
I am stupid, i am foolish. i love him...

Where is he now? I just don''t know. Sometimes just wish i could have him here so close to my side, so close to my heart. If only i could let him know how i love him so much.
It seems that i am fallin deeper every single day goes by....
How can i conceal this emotion and this feeling? How can i ever not let him know that i love him so much. Every night i dream of a world called Neverland, with him by my side forever and one...hand in hand....
I love you Brythelle, and if only i could be with you to share and to love you untill death.
I love you...

Another minute has gone by...
I''m sitting here, counting every single second and minute. He has not called me yet. I haven''t either. How long will I be able to stand it? He never seems to care. So...turn your back and walk away... There''s nothing left to regret of...
I wonder why I have to take so much care of him. I don''t know why I have to wait for him to call me first, just to know that he still wants to talk to me. I love him...don''t I?
I have been waiting for almost an hour, but received nothing. It''s so bitter to know that to him I no longer mean anything more...anyone else....but a stranger.
Today I''m missing Brythelle, I wish he''s still ok with his work and stuff. Sometimes I just want to cheer him up, sometimes I just want to make him feel more relieved and comfortable. But i feel from deep beneath my skin he''s kind of slipping away from me....and I''m slipping away from him.
Hold me back. Cuz I never want to let it go...I love you, Brythelle, I love you
If only you could understand it enough, to see what i feel... to feel what i feel

Back off. You must not love him. See?
You must not love him!!!​

It seems that I am successful... Is he flitting out of my mind?
I just don''t know. If only I could understand what I really feel and think for this moment. Sometimes I feel bored, so bored... But I cannot rev it up, so just let it go.
Do i still love him?
It hurts when I still think of this, but i will try not to think.
So sad and confused...
Do i love him?

hurt.​

I''ll see u again but I don''t know when...

Sometimes I just wonder how i could get you out of my mind...totally, completely.
And if somebody could ever tell me why i still dream of you that much, even when i know it''s over, even when this feeling has faded away.
If only someone could have ever told me before...
I miss your tender smile, your tender kiss...I miss you, I miss you...
Được oceanborn sửa chữa / chuyển vào 16:33 ngày 21/04/2006

You never seem to understand me...
Never