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The space of 10 months is not too long nor too short for us to understand and sympathy to each other. But there is something preventing me from taking to your heart. I always wonder what that is. It''s the different between our circumstances, thinking.. something belongs to ourselves.. can''t change anyway. I comfort myself that we don''t belong to each other....

Not surprisingly that I hardly breathe these days, Iõ?Tm sick of the summer weather so hot and so stiflingõ?Ư
Not in the mood for doing anything, my boring job is killing me silently, without ambitions and motivations I cant do anythingõ?Ưhow come my life turned out to be so hard like thisõ?ƯI just donõ?Tt knowõ?Ư.
Somewhere I belong toõ?Ưsomewhere I wanna go toõ?Ưsomewhere I wanna õ?Ư
I had nothing to sayõ?Ưjust stuck

Chủ đề này hay, xứng đáng 5 sao

It''s strange to bare your soul on net uh? I don''t want anyone to see those line so I better keep this for myself, where i can be true to myself.
I''m used to think that we can''t find love on Internet, that people are so lame to find love on the other side of the ocean and now I am the one. How can I say? I think I''m in love with him. I''m on line everyday just to talk to him, wait for hours and wondering what he is doing. What''s wrong with me??????
His first impression was he is a great photographer, only the amateur one but good (anyway, I''m crap at photography so his works are so good to me). I gave him my opinion about the photos and he appreciated it. He is very difference with other guys I knew from net ( not that I know that many but there is something about him that really touch me )
We talked almost everyday about anything and everything. He shared his childhood, his past love and how he still thinking of her and I listened patiently. I told him my past bitten love experience, he was very understanding.
I haven''t met any guys on net that spend hours help my with my school assignments, later he stayed until 12pm to help me with the business ethics exam. Well, let see what we discussed? all about what''s happiness, what''s good life? responsibility, moral, mean and end of life.... that sort of things. I was impressed with his caring and good sense of humor, he knew what to say in the right time to cheer me up and always be there when I needed.
English is not my first language nor his. We all Vietnamese, he in US, I''m study in Aus. One day, I told him that my English is getting worst and he start to talk in English and correct my mistake. He suggested to voice chat so I can improve my speaking skill. I didn''t even have to ask, he just suggest to do anything for my all good. He just a good nature person.
Unlike other guy on net always ask if they can be your boyfriend. He never asks me that. He is around, give me the help that I need, no questions asked. Really good friend with all the meaning of the word. I think I fall for him from time to time.
Today is another day that he is not around and I still on line, looking for a sign, drop him offline messages, hopefully he will answer. It''s so lame of me!!!! But I can''t help it. I don;t think to post for anyone to see, but since on ttvnol, no one know me and I know he will not read those line so I just posted it on. Feel so good after type this.
I know we can not go any further in this relationship ( if we can call this relationship ) but I still hope it will one day. I try to get him out of my mind by going out with another guy. Hopefully it will help

nice and cute, btw where r u studying now in Áu

Thank for your comment. I need to work more on my English.
I study in a country town in Victoria name Warrnambool. Not many people know where it is. Anyway, this week will be another busy week with lot of voluteer work and paid work. Just one more week and I can have holiday. Yeahh!!!! This is my second road trip. Something to look forward to.

a rainy day. I hate rain, it never bring luckiness for me. more failure. sad, dissapointed., anything else?......
What is hell going on me. Why do luckiness always refuse me?

Have you even been lonely when surrounding by people? I havenâ?Tt had this feeling until now. I should not have felt this way after nearly 3 years living in Australia, away from home and friends, but I somehow feel it now.
It is a busy day for me today, working at Fun4kids, talked with friends, planning for the next road trip and I still felt lonely.
Maybe it is another day had gone without chatting with you. Before you came to my life, I was so certain what I want and what I should do. I should have read books, watch TV or chatting with friends, but now nothing seem interested me. I had Nicholas Sparks book sitting here for days and I haven''t finished it yet. It was used to take me 2 days to finish and get a new books but now it has been a week and I not even half way. It was all because of you you you. Why did you on-line these day? What had happened? Do you busy with your work or you just don''t want to talk to me? I''m paranoid.
I finished planning the trip, but why I did not excited like I should have been? I have travel for 8 months and this would be my first time to see snow, I should happy, should I? But why do I go with G but not you? I knew it is far far a way for you to come here and travel with me but I can stop wondering? What is feel like when we have road trip together? like you did with your ex-girlfriend? Will you miss her? I don''t know. Shouldn''t put me down uh? I''m perfect the way I am and if you love me, you should love me for the way I am. ( well, this is the hundred time I told this sentence to myself but I won''t believe it ).
I met G last year when I went back home to see my family. He made me feel like a girl again, feel being cared for and firtted with. It was such a good feeling. Friends keep asking me the relationship between me and G since he fly all the way from BNE here to see me. If I haven''t met you, thing might change? I''m not so sure. I don''t think he is right for me. He haven''t contacted me to confirm if he join in or not. It''s doesn''t matter, I still go, with or without him.

I''m sorry if this might bother you. Please feel free und understand that I never expect to make you angry. Just want to help you finding your mistakes, of course no one is perfect, isnt it?
Lets see

By chance tonight I read your entry. It is not my intention to make you get angry as I try to correct some mistakes. Hope you could be better in putting your feelings in words, especially in english. Its not an easy task but also not an impossible mission. The most mistake you have is the problem in using tense. Best wishes.
Goodnight

What''s your worst day ?
Who has worse day than me that day:
I went to school with a normal speed, with a normal mood. But things occured unnormally from a point that was 2 km far from my university.
My front tyre bursted. Poor me !! . A new tyre costed 35.000 VND and i have 25.ooo in my frequent-misery pocket.
I requested to put both my student card and ID as a guarantee but just cash was accepted. Hell !!!!
No where to make a phone call. I was online and waiting to catch an unlucky guy or gal. . Aha !! One guy was chosen. He asked me to wait. I said i was waiting at Traffic colledge while i should have said that i was at Building Colledge . Poor him.
After that we met each other online. He asked me where i was actually. This time we met . He payed $ and go home. I lost my morning class and to go school to wait for the exam in the afternoon.
Fortunately in the exam ( computing exam) i picked Word exam . Poor guys which picked Exel exam.
I finished the test successfully. There was plenty of time left. The girl next to me was confusing with her Exel test. I tore my Exel " material" for her to consult . We discussed something in her exam, and laughed . When teacher marked me, he did''nt treat me as others. Two of us have to leave our sits. Then i was standing infront of class, my friend is asked to stand in the corner of the room . Poor her. SHe didnt'' want to stand there and simply, she''s asked to go out. I was asked to apologize teacher for making noise. Simply: sorry teacher. I passed
When i took my motobike, i couldn''t find the key . It always disappear mysteriously. . But i often find it easily, but this time, I went round and round to look for the **** key. AT last i call my friend in hostel to push the motobike to a fixing moto store ( ???- bad word choice maybe). When we was crossing the ticket collector, he said " Lost key? it''s here !!" . Complex emotion !
Bad day finished here maybe !!
I had my Chinese class at night, so i was online until 6pm. Time for class now. Bye friends and signed out to enter class.
Took a confortable sit, i was waiting for teacher. A minute later, a man walk to class and asked " Have the Cô giáo arrived yet ?"
" not yet " reply . Strange ! My teacher is actually a Thầy giáo. I asked the neighbouring girl : " what''s the date today? " " Friday"
My Chinese class was on Thursday !! . It''s not fair.
" Coz you had a bad day, you take it one down, you sing a sad song just turn it a round. .." The " Bad Day" lyric of Daniel Powter haunted me along the way to home and my nightmare that night !
( All story are the truth eccept for the last sentence - just an ad***ive. ) My bad day often drop into friday. Be careful guys !!