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Hey bé Brit: Best wishes on your birthday !!! You have your parents there to celebrate with you. And I''m sure your brother and friends will think of you on your special day. Cheer up, little girl !
Thanks for sharing! About what your friend told you, "Girls are the ones who make decision, boys just have the chance !" Thanks for giving me strength.
Hey CAbabe: Thanks for reading my little diary and sharing with me your experience! Châu is rather straightforward with me about his feelings, and I respect that. Actually he told me that he didn''t feel any connection after that first time we met, but he''d rather us to keep in touch, coz we never know what might happen in the future. But I think we have talked to each other, and felt connected on phone. If he met me outside and didn''t feel that same connection, I''d rather us to move on. I know my decision may be a little bit hasty, but I''ve had experience with Hải. Hải was not sure about his feelings, which made me really frustrated and hurt.
Therefore, this time, when anh Châu told me he didn''t know, I just decide to move on. I''ve told him everything I need to tell him to be able to make a wise decision. I''ve told him about my feelings. Now it''s his own decision to either call it quit or go further.

Hey bé Brit: Best wishes on your birthday !!! You have your parents there to celebrate with you. And I''m sure your brother and friends will think of you on your special day. Cheer up, little girl !
Thanks for sharing! About what your friend told you, "Girls are the ones who make decision, boys just have the chance !" Thanks for giving me strength.
Hey CAbabe: Thanks for reading my little diary and sharing with me your experience! Châu is rather straightforward with me about his feelings, and I respect that. Actually he told me that he didn''t feel any connection after that first time we met, but he''d rather us to keep in touch, coz we never know what might happen in the future. But I think we have talked to each other, and felt connected on phone. If he met me outside and didn''t feel that same connection, I''d rather us to move on. I know my decision may be a little bit hasty, but I''ve had experience with Hải. Hải was not sure about his feelings, which made me really frustrated and hurt.
Therefore, this time, when anh Châu told me he didn''t know, I just decide to move on. I''ve told him everything I need to tell him to be able to make a wise decision. I''ve told him about my feelings. Now it''s his own decision to either call it quit or go further.

Hey sis 6sense: Thank you for your wishes. I have my parents and friends to celebrate with me yet it''s hard to be happy honestly. 2 persons I love most are now far-away. Daddy is not very well at the moment, how can I be relieved? I''ve never told him I love him so much, I''ve never shown him any care or gratitude.... I seemed to take everything he gave me for granted. Oh what a bad daughter I am!!! I''m so scared... I''m scared of losing him.... just can''t sleep sound... If only my brother''s home, I could have someone to rely on, someone I can always trust... I donõ?Tt want to shed a tearõ?Ư I need to be strongõ?Ư Oh my head''s gonna explode... so tired, so crazy.... I''m going mad...
Drowning in piles of homework! What the heck is that? Why do we have to learn with such an irresponsible teacher? 1 chapter in 1 period??? Incredible! How can we understand the lesson if you keep teaching that way??? Dang!!!
God, I just have one wish on my birthday. I just want my mom and dad to be healthy for always. That''s all I ever need... Do you hear me???
So close no matter how far... I have you in my heart and nothing else matters...

Hey sis 6sense: Thank you for your wishes. I have my parents and friends to celebrate with me yet it''s hard to be happy honestly. 2 persons I love most are now far-away. Daddy is not very well at the moment, how can I be relieved? I''ve never told him I love him so much, I''ve never shown him any care or gratitude.... I seemed to take everything he gave me for granted. Oh what a bad daughter I am!!! I''m so scared... I''m scared of losing him.... just can''t sleep sound... If only my brother''s home, I could have someone to rely on, someone I can always trust... I donõ?Tt want to shed a tearõ?Ư I need to be strongõ?Ư Oh my head''s gonna explode... so tired, so crazy.... I''m going mad...
Drowning in piles of homework! What the heck is that? Why do we have to learn with such an irresponsible teacher? 1 chapter in 1 period??? Incredible! How can we understand the lesson if you keep teaching that way??? Dang!!!
God, I just have one wish on my birthday. I just want my mom and dad to be healthy for always. That''s all I ever need... Do you hear me???
So close no matter how far... I have you in my heart and nothing else matters...

Another week has just passed rapidly... time goes by so fast, my friend. Still remember 2 weeks ago, you two were at my house doing such a lot of crazy things It was so fun to have a night like that anyway ! Hey remember what you and Duong put on my lovely desk??? Water, yoghurt, dried beef, spoons, glasses, CDs, books... wow ... exactly like a mess! Iâ?Tm wondering why I didnâ?Tt shout at you hehe. It was pretty enjoyable when you and me took some ridiculous pictures of Duong huh. Gotta send it to you as long as I resize it! I can say for sure you''re gonna burst out laughing, honestly she looks no different from a rabbit Remember your phone book? How dare you changed my name into Nguyet T??? Duong''s new name is quite interesting, though and it was perfectly creative of you to invent a word as such hehe! Duong, if youâ?Tre reading these lines, don''t yell at me ok? All we did was just laugh and laugh...... Still everything is so vivid in my head... miss your voice, the gentle tones you speak, even Duong and I had to shout "Hey speak louder! Are you talking to yourself [ ", miss the beautiful smile on your face.... Late at night I stay up and think of you, and I wish on a star that somewhere you are thinking of me, too. Cause I''m dreaming about you tonight and there''s nowhere else in the world I''d rather be than here in my room dreaming about you and me.... jk no need to think of me, I know you''re not gonna dreaming of us but.... T hahaha , right??? Good luck on your study and remember to email me... as long & soon as possible ... Waiting for your call on my b-day....
So close no matter how far... I have you in my heart and nothing else matters...

Another week has just passed rapidly... time goes by so fast, my friend. Still remember 2 weeks ago, you two were at my house doing such a lot of crazy things It was so fun to have a night like that anyway ! Hey remember what you and Duong put on my lovely desk??? Water, yoghurt, dried beef, spoons, glasses, CDs, books... wow ... exactly like a mess! Iâ?Tm wondering why I didnâ?Tt shout at you hehe. It was pretty enjoyable when you and me took some ridiculous pictures of Duong huh. Gotta send it to you as long as I resize it! I can say for sure you''re gonna burst out laughing, honestly she looks no different from a rabbit Remember your phone book? How dare you changed my name into Nguyet T??? Duong''s new name is quite interesting, though and it was perfectly creative of you to invent a word as such hehe! Duong, if youâ?Tre reading these lines, don''t yell at me ok? All we did was just laugh and laugh...... Still everything is so vivid in my head... miss your voice, the gentle tones you speak, even Duong and I had to shout "Hey speak louder! Are you talking to yourself [ ", miss the beautiful smile on your face.... Late at night I stay up and think of you, and I wish on a star that somewhere you are thinking of me, too. Cause I''m dreaming about you tonight and there''s nowhere else in the world I''d rather be than here in my room dreaming about you and me.... jk no need to think of me, I know you''re not gonna dreaming of us but.... T hahaha , right??? Good luck on your study and remember to email me... as long & soon as possible ... Waiting for your call on my b-day....
So close no matter how far... I have you in my heart and nothing else matters...

Hey bé Brit: How''s your Dad? Is he okey?
I''ve been strong for the last few days. I focused more on my studies. I listened to the radio every night. I also looked for a new driving teacher, and started practising driving with him this afternoon for one hour.
I told my friends how our story ended with a calm voice. I didn''t pretend to be calm. I did feel quite relieved, because I''d done everything I could. I had nothing to regret.
But tonight, I was at home by myself. I suddenly though about you..... I cried. I thought I''d found someone to rely on and to be there for me. I thought I''d found the right man.
You didn''t want me as your baby. I know that, and I''m so sad. Why did a man like you, who was capable of bringing me so much joy and happiness refused to do that? That though made me mad.
I never acted crazy in front of you, coz I know once you don''t love me, there''s no use acting crazy. Moreover, I''m du học sinh. My status doesn''t allow me to act so crazy coz I''m afraid you may think I try to seduce you in order to stay here . I''d thought of hiding somewhere to force you go looking for me. I''d thought of "ngồi"ing ăn vạ somewhere and refusing to let you drive me home. But when I''m by myself, I''m obsessed with all those crazy thoughts.
Anyway, when I''m writing these things down, I''m laughing again. I cried and I laughed. I cried because I know there''s no turning back. I laughed because I didn''t know why I had to cry. My experience with Hải was an eye-opener, and I was no longer obsessed with all those guessing, wondering, and confusing. Everything will be over, and time will heal.

Hey bé Brit: How''s your Dad? Is he okey?
I''ve been strong for the last few days. I focused more on my studies. I listened to the radio every night. I also looked for a new driving teacher, and started practising driving with him this afternoon for one hour.
I told my friends how our story ended with a calm voice. I didn''t pretend to be calm. I did feel quite relieved, because I''d done everything I could. I had nothing to regret.
But tonight, I was at home by myself. I suddenly though about you..... I cried. I thought I''d found someone to rely on and to be there for me. I thought I''d found the right man.
You didn''t want me as your baby. I know that, and I''m so sad. Why did a man like you, who was capable of bringing me so much joy and happiness refused to do that? That though made me mad.
I never acted crazy in front of you, coz I know once you don''t love me, there''s no use acting crazy. Moreover, I''m du học sinh. My status doesn''t allow me to act so crazy coz I''m afraid you may think I try to seduce you in order to stay here . I''d thought of hiding somewhere to force you go looking for me. I''d thought of "ngồi"ing ăn vạ somewhere and refusing to let you drive me home. But when I''m by myself, I''m obsessed with all those crazy thoughts.
Anyway, when I''m writing these things down, I''m laughing again. I cried and I laughed. I cried because I know there''s no turning back. I laughed because I didn''t know why I had to cry. My experience with Hải was an eye-opener, and I was no longer obsessed with all those guessing, wondering, and confusing. Everything will be over, and time will heal.

When I started this diary, and noted down our conversation and beautiful memories, I hoped someday I''ll show you the link to my diary. And you can have a good laugh.
But now while I''m reading again what I wrote, tears are running down on my cheeks.

When I started this diary, and noted down our conversation and beautiful memories, I hoped someday I''ll show you the link to my diary. And you can have a good laugh.
But now while I''m reading again what I wrote, tears are running down on my cheeks.