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Bé Brit, I hope your Dad is Ok.
I read your diary every day. Anything you want to share, just share with us..
You know what, I read what you wrote for your close friend, H. When I read the first few lines, I thought you''ve just got a boyfriend . But then I realized it''s your female close friend.
Bé Brit, you are a sweet little girl. You know, it amazed me how you expressed your feelings.....
I can''t remember how I expressed my feelings at your age. But as I get older, my feelings are there but I seem to lose touch with them. Often, my mind guides my reactions and behaviors. When a. Châu came into my life, and when I met him outside, I was shy at first. I acted unaturally and kept my mouth shut.
But as we were about to part, and he came back to North Carolina, I couldn''t believe I cried while telling him about my feelings and myself. Later, when we got home, and he hugged me goodbye, I pushed him away. When I pushed him away, he looked at me surprised, and I was surprised, too. I didn''t know why I pushed him away. Later, I thought that maybe I got mad at him. I only want him to hug me, if he''s passionate about it.
I thought about him, and I don''t want to give up yet. I hope I can get the driving license in a short time, so I can inform him the news. I know that whether this will work out is my part, but also God''s. But I make sure I''ll try my best, then I''ll leave it up to God to decide...

Bé Brit, I hope your Dad is Ok.
I read your diary every day. Anything you want to share, just share with us..
You know what, I read what you wrote for your close friend, H. When I read the first few lines, I thought you''ve just got a boyfriend . But then I realized it''s your female close friend.
Bé Brit, you are a sweet little girl. You know, it amazed me how you expressed your feelings.....
I can''t remember how I expressed my feelings at your age. But as I get older, my feelings are there but I seem to lose touch with them. Often, my mind guides my reactions and behaviors. When a. Châu came into my life, and when I met him outside, I was shy at first. I acted unaturally and kept my mouth shut.
But as we were about to part, and he came back to North Carolina, I couldn''t believe I cried while telling him about my feelings and myself. Later, when we got home, and he hugged me goodbye, I pushed him away. When I pushed him away, he looked at me surprised, and I was surprised, too. I didn''t know why I pushed him away. Later, I thought that maybe I got mad at him. I only want him to hug me, if he''s passionate about it.
I thought about him, and I don''t want to give up yet. I hope I can get the driving license in a short time, so I can inform him the news. I know that whether this will work out is my part, but also God''s. But I make sure I''ll try my best, then I''ll leave it up to God to decide...

madness is around U
well, I think I''ll be a part of this diary
write down or speak out loud to me is the best way to reduce my madness
Another day on this boring earth...
Heaven beside you ...Hell within

madness is around U
well, I think I''ll be a part of this diary
write down or speak out loud to me is the best way to reduce my madness
Another day on this boring earth...
Heaven beside you ...Hell within

To day, after playing basket ball, I get 3 more injuries (2 arms, 1 leg), and yesterday my eyes just got a little bit problem when the ball hit my head!!! May be I should have a diary where I can remind me my injuries! Dad doesnõ?Tt want me pay so much time with sport! T_T
Nahõ?ƯI still play anyway! I canõ?Tt get rid of it! ^.-
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Được robot2051 sửa chữa / chuyển vào 22:22 ngày 14/10/2003

To day, after playing basket ball, I get 3 more injuries (2 arms, 1 leg), and yesterday my eyes just got a little bit problem when the ball hit my head!!! May be I should have a diary where I can remind me my injuries! Dad doesnõ?Tt want me pay so much time with sport! T_T
Nahõ?ƯI still play anyway! I canõ?Tt get rid of it! ^.-
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Được robot2051 sửa chữa / chuyển vào 22:22 ngày 14/10/2003

don''t know why but right now, all those feelings are rising so high...just the feeling of being all alone, no one could understand what the real of me, smile too much sometimes makes me feel sick, wondering why I have to try so hard to cover my anger with that mask. Am I the one who''s fear of being alone? while my attitute are making my friends think that I like to be alone...just sad...I fear that they would wasting their caress, they have enough troubles to bear...
Heaven beside you ...Hell within

don''t know why but right now, all those feelings are rising so high...just the feeling of being all alone, no one could understand what the real of me, smile too much sometimes makes me feel sick, wondering why I have to try so hard to cover my anger with that mask. Am I the one who''s fear of being alone? while my attitute are making my friends think that I like to be alone...just sad...I fear that they would wasting their caress, they have enough troubles to bear...
Heaven beside you ...Hell within

[nick]amateur_in_rock[/nick], you know what, I have exactly the same feelings like you... maybe we have the same personâ?We all tend to hide the real persons in us. To be honest, very few people can understand me, what I''m feeling inside. For many years, I never shared my real feelings with friends, even the "bestest? one, and the picture of me is simply a happy-go-lucky girl, always smiling and talking. Ironically, I am not. My best friend once asked me "M, I''ve never seen you cry. Why?" I didn''t know what to say at first, I didn''t realize I''d never cried before people. But that''s not the way I am. I pretended to live such a carefree life and nothing seemed to be able to worry me. It wasn''t true at all.. I''m not as strong as people think, I''m never, in contrast, I''m totally vulnerable. I led that kind of ?opretending? life for so long, until one day.... everything became so terrible that I couldn''t handle them on my own, I was totally lost and confused. Then came a friend who showed me what a true friendship is for. Now there''s nothing I can hide from her and I feel completely relieved... no longer do I have to bear those pains all alone... And the most important thing, I realize we should never hide the way we are, cause people are just going to love you more once they know who you really are. AIR, believe me, I know how you''re feeling. Even I?Tm just a little girl, I have much maturer thoughts than peole my age, no kidding. Try to find a trustworthy friend to share everything and you won''t have to cope with this hard life all by yourself anymore You just can?Tt make it on your own. ?oEveryone needs a friend to rely on, Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on?? Remember that song?
There are times in life that people just wanna be left alonê? don?Tt worry, AIR. It?Ts alright. That feeling will sooner or later fade away. Just because you?Tre under a big pressure right now? you need silience to think?. I know how it feels caused I did want everybody in this world to disappear, I wanna be left alone to cry, to shout out loud that I?Tm worn out? I need a break. Yet wouldn?Tt it be better to have someone to cry on, someone to talk to?
....., however hard I tried to forget things you said, they just won''t go away.... ... Why did you come and then you leave??? keep wondering why....
So close no matter how far... I have you in my heart and nothing else matters...

[nick]amateur_in_rock[/nick], you know what, I have exactly the same feelings like you... maybe we have the same personâ?We all tend to hide the real persons in us. To be honest, very few people can understand me, what I''m feeling inside. For many years, I never shared my real feelings with friends, even the "bestest? one, and the picture of me is simply a happy-go-lucky girl, always smiling and talking. Ironically, I am not. My best friend once asked me "M, I''ve never seen you cry. Why?" I didn''t know what to say at first, I didn''t realize I''d never cried before people. But that''s not the way I am. I pretended to live such a carefree life and nothing seemed to be able to worry me. It wasn''t true at all.. I''m not as strong as people think, I''m never, in contrast, I''m totally vulnerable. I led that kind of ?opretending? life for so long, until one day.... everything became so terrible that I couldn''t handle them on my own, I was totally lost and confused. Then came a friend who showed me what a true friendship is for. Now there''s nothing I can hide from her and I feel completely relieved... no longer do I have to bear those pains all alone... And the most important thing, I realize we should never hide the way we are, cause people are just going to love you more once they know who you really are. AIR, believe me, I know how you''re feeling. Even I?Tm just a little girl, I have much maturer thoughts than peole my age, no kidding. Try to find a trustworthy friend to share everything and you won''t have to cope with this hard life all by yourself anymore You just can?Tt make it on your own. ?oEveryone needs a friend to rely on, Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on?? Remember that song?
There are times in life that people just wanna be left alonê? don?Tt worry, AIR. It?Ts alright. That feeling will sooner or later fade away. Just because you?Tre under a big pressure right now? you need silience to think?. I know how it feels caused I did want everybody in this world to disappear, I wanna be left alone to cry, to shout out loud that I?Tm worn out? I need a break. Yet wouldn?Tt it be better to have someone to cry on, someone to talk to?
....., however hard I tried to forget things you said, they just won''t go away.... ... Why did you come and then you leave??? keep wondering why....
So close no matter how far... I have you in my heart and nothing else matters...