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Now I feel so insecure after sending you the mail.
I know why I feel this way. I''''m scared of losing you. I''''m scared you''''ll reply my mail, telling me you''''d rather us to be friends.
Have I loved you?
I don''''t know. But I still want another try. I don''''t want to end this way.
Now, I think I''m being ridiculous. Of course we have to go from being friends again, through that we can understand each other better. But I know what matters is whether you''ll try or not after that.
Được 5plus1sense sửa chữa / chuyển vào 13:49 ngày 20/10/2003

Now I feel so insecure after sending you the mail.
I know why I feel this way. I''''m scared of losing you. I''''m scared you''''ll reply my mail, telling me you''''d rather us to be friends.
Have I loved you?
I don''''t know. But I still want another try. I don''''t want to end this way.
Now, I think I''m being ridiculous. Of course we have to go from being friends again, through that we can understand each other better. But I know what matters is whether you''ll try or not after that.
Được 5plus1sense sửa chữa / chuyển vào 13:49 ngày 20/10/2003

You know little sis, we''''''''re the same in that way...trying to self-hypnotized that "I''''''''m a strong person, and nothing you do can let me down", It''''''''s easy to be a strong man when you go out, smiling and kick others asses, but when you come back home, sitting there, doing nothing, you can feel things(good things and bad things) you suffered all day long inside. Some can say "Holysh**, can''''''''t believe that guy has that feelings, I bet he makes it up everything" It''''''''s nothing like some story-like ................................
Hey, don''''t ever try to think of mandatory suicide! I don''''t think you have better reasons to take your life , but I actually never have a thought of turning myself into a ghost someday. A couple of advice to appease yourself is as follows:
1) Drink, as much as you can, until you drop and lay everywhere you like! Don''''t give a **** about what they think about you. Anyway this life is for whom? For you or for others? I suppose we''''re living in a free society, right? So do anything you like that''''s not banned as stated in Constitution, Regulations, Rules, Book of Gods, etc. You live for yourself, not for others! Don''''t feel uncomfortable if some hypocrites say you''''re leading a depraved life, or teach you all the rubbish taken from a Book of Ethics. Many of us know hypocrites always dissemble and wear a beautiful face of dignity, moral and conduct. But actually they?Tre much worse than us! What they''''re better is in skillfully masking evils and vices, and performing hypocrisy. Hey, just a 1-second thought of hypocrisy makes me sicken immediately. The Party members in my place always appear diplomatic, polite and pronounce noble things but all they did, have done and are doing is loads of evils that are hardly to count in a mere year.
2) If that doesn''''t work in the slightest, turn to other forms of entertainments and pleasures, anything that makes you feel better in any respect. But remember not to turn to opium or drug ''''cause it shall ruin your life and deprive you of any will to fight your adversaries . If you turn drug-addicted, you can''''t do anything but think of ecstatic injections to go comfortably numb. I must admit opium helps one go comfortably numb as if in the 9th cloud, but if you take it you''''ve decided for yourself you''''ll never get anywhere
3) If some pleasures and entertainment don''''t help in any way, turn to work, yeah, work like hell as if to turn yourself into a emotionless machine. Work until you drop!
4) If all that even isn''''t of any help, turn to brutal death music! Long, long ago I was in an extremely bad situation: disliking my life, hating people and loathing things, a real misanthropist, and I felt like doing nothing, but I rose above all that ****ing terriable situations by listening to extrem music. Somehow it really appeases you when you take raucous, brutal sounds from it, when you really feel like you were releasing all that you can''''t do in real life that makes you angry, misanthropic, etc. When I was almost dying in a patient''''s bed and felt like dying more quickly listening to soft music, I turned it on and surprisingly it helped me up from the bottom of the hell! I felt as if I were given tons of energy to bring back a love of life and work and to forget what the **** I must suffer in everyday life, and all that I must go through just to safeguard sb''''s interests. You should find a real partner who''''s also in the same boat and willing to share sth with you positively.
If you were born into a wealthy family and don''''t know what you''''re doing for ''''cause you have everything you want, then my trite pieces of advice above is all the rubbish! I have some of the friends who have everything they want, so they don''''t have a goal in life to aim at. That''''s why they readily have a sickening disklike for their life and the world around them. And you know what next? Opium, drug, depravation, moral aberrations, etc....
OK, just joking a bit! Don''''t take it seriously! My apology in advance if you seem to think I''''m lecturing you on what you think you''''re much better at than me! Anyway, you remember what we''''re here for? Yep, to learn English by means of interacting virtually with one another, sharing feelings and personal experiences, etc... English isn''''t learn to say nice things only, is it? It''''s also for every real-world situations and we all know life''''s surrounded not merely by virtues but also vices!
Anyway, I''''m here to practice English with other members, thus helping to achieve the common goal of the Box. So anything that''''s in English posted containing not too vile ideas and morbid ideologies should be useful, at least for the person who wrote it since he had a good chance to have his written English corrected by other expert users of english. That said, please don''''t lay blames on me ''''cause I don''''t aim at anything dirty, don''''t lecture anyone, etc..... clear?????
 
 
Right decision, to be true to myself, and FOREVER HATE YOU!
Được captor_of_sin sửa chữa / chuyển vào 18:37 ngày 20/10/2003

You know little sis, we''''''''re the same in that way...trying to self-hypnotized that "I''''''''m a strong person, and nothing you do can let me down", It''''''''s easy to be a strong man when you go out, smiling and kick others asses, but when you come back home, sitting there, doing nothing, you can feel things(good things and bad things) you suffered all day long inside. Some can say "Holysh**, can''''''''t believe that guy has that feelings, I bet he makes it up everything" It''''''''s nothing like some story-like ................................
Hey, don''''t ever try to think of mandatory suicide! I don''''t think you have better reasons to take your life , but I actually never have a thought of turning myself into a ghost someday. A couple of advice to appease yourself is as follows:
1) Drink, as much as you can, until you drop and lay everywhere you like! Don''''t give a **** about what they think about you. Anyway this life is for whom? For you or for others? I suppose we''''re living in a free society, right? So do anything you like that''''s not banned as stated in Constitution, Regulations, Rules, Book of Gods, etc. You live for yourself, not for others! Don''''t feel uncomfortable if some hypocrites say you''''re leading a depraved life, or teach you all the rubbish taken from a Book of Ethics. Many of us know hypocrites always dissemble and wear a beautiful face of dignity, moral and conduct. But actually they?Tre much worse than us! What they''''re better is in skillfully masking evils and vices, and performing hypocrisy. Hey, just a 1-second thought of hypocrisy makes me sicken immediately. The Party members in my place always appear diplomatic, polite and pronounce noble things but all they did, have done and are doing is loads of evils that are hardly to count in a mere year.
2) If that doesn''''t work in the slightest, turn to other forms of entertainments and pleasures, anything that makes you feel better in any respect. But remember not to turn to opium or drug ''''cause it shall ruin your life and deprive you of any will to fight your adversaries . If you turn drug-addicted, you can''''t do anything but think of ecstatic injections to go comfortably numb. I must admit opium helps one go comfortably numb as if in the 9th cloud, but if you take it you''''ve decided for yourself you''''ll never get anywhere
3) If some pleasures and entertainment don''''t help in any way, turn to work, yeah, work like hell as if to turn yourself into a emotionless machine. Work until you drop!
4) If all that even isn''''t of any help, turn to brutal death music! Long, long ago I was in an extremely bad situation: disliking my life, hating people and loathing things, a real misanthropist, and I felt like doing nothing, but I rose above all that ****ing terriable situations by listening to extrem music. Somehow it really appeases you when you take raucous, brutal sounds from it, when you really feel like you were releasing all that you can''''t do in real life that makes you angry, misanthropic, etc. When I was almost dying in a patient''''s bed and felt like dying more quickly listening to soft music, I turned it on and surprisingly it helped me up from the bottom of the hell! I felt as if I were given tons of energy to bring back a love of life and work and to forget what the **** I must suffer in everyday life, and all that I must go through just to safeguard sb''''s interests. You should find a real partner who''''s also in the same boat and willing to share sth with you positively.
If you were born into a wealthy family and don''''t know what you''''re doing for ''''cause you have everything you want, then my trite pieces of advice above is all the rubbish! I have some of the friends who have everything they want, so they don''''t have a goal in life to aim at. That''''s why they readily have a sickening disklike for their life and the world around them. And you know what next? Opium, drug, depravation, moral aberrations, etc....
OK, just joking a bit! Don''''t take it seriously! My apology in advance if you seem to think I''''m lecturing you on what you think you''''re much better at than me! Anyway, you remember what we''''re here for? Yep, to learn English by means of interacting virtually with one another, sharing feelings and personal experiences, etc... English isn''''t learn to say nice things only, is it? It''''s also for every real-world situations and we all know life''''s surrounded not merely by virtues but also vices!
Anyway, I''''m here to practice English with other members, thus helping to achieve the common goal of the Box. So anything that''''s in English posted containing not too vile ideas and morbid ideologies should be useful, at least for the person who wrote it since he had a good chance to have his written English corrected by other expert users of english. That said, please don''''t lay blames on me ''''cause I don''''t aim at anything dirty, don''''t lecture anyone, etc..... clear?????
 
 
Right decision, to be true to myself, and FOREVER HATE YOU!
Được captor_of_sin sửa chữa / chuyển vào 18:37 ngày 20/10/2003

read it
now thinking about what you''ve said
anyway I don''t think ya''re some moral ~ moron
trying to take your advices seriously...and I''m not stupid enough to inject some drugs inside me
thanx dude
You know I'm a dreamerMy heart's like an open bookFor the whole world to readAnd when things went rightIt doesn't mean they were always wrong...
Somtimes nothing--keeps me togetherAt the seams...

read it
now thinking about what you''ve said
anyway I don''t think ya''re some moral ~ moron
trying to take your advices seriously...and I''m not stupid enough to inject some drugs inside me
thanx dude
You know I'm a dreamerMy heart's like an open bookFor the whole world to readAnd when things went rightIt doesn't mean they were always wrong...
Somtimes nothing--keeps me togetherAt the seams...

Last nite I called and talked to Mom and Dad. Mom said she may expand the business. I have a lot of respect for Mom and Dad. I admire them. Seem to me they never stop working. Dad is truely a teacher. He is patient, devoted, and lots of students like him. Mom is business-minded. Together they worked and sent us here to study.
I feel kinda bad. I''ve been rather laid back for the last few months. I allowed myself to relax too much .That''s why once anh Châu scolded me . I complained to him that I may not get a decent grade, and he got angry. I remember he said, "Do you know what Vietnamese people are famous for? Hard-working. My dad is now 70 years old, and he still volunteers to work in the hospital. Now you are telling me that you want to relax now. Shame on you! You bring such a shame on Vietnamese people."
I haven''t been scolded for a looooooong time. Now I''ve got this man. He knows how to care. He knows how to spoil. And he knows when to be tough. I''m not that laid-back. School is just easy, and I don''t see any challenge. But you are right. I have to try to get good grade, not "good enough to pass".
I don''t know if I''ve sent you the mail to the right address. I deleted your mails, and just tried to recall it from my memory. That''s killing me now. If you don''t reply, either because you don''t care for me, or because I''ve guessed wrong.

Last nite I called and talked to Mom and Dad. Mom said she may expand the business. I have a lot of respect for Mom and Dad. I admire them. Seem to me they never stop working. Dad is truely a teacher. He is patient, devoted, and lots of students like him. Mom is business-minded. Together they worked and sent us here to study.
I feel kinda bad. I''ve been rather laid back for the last few months. I allowed myself to relax too much .That''s why once anh Châu scolded me . I complained to him that I may not get a decent grade, and he got angry. I remember he said, "Do you know what Vietnamese people are famous for? Hard-working. My dad is now 70 years old, and he still volunteers to work in the hospital. Now you are telling me that you want to relax now. Shame on you! You bring such a shame on Vietnamese people."
I haven''t been scolded for a looooooong time. Now I''ve got this man. He knows how to care. He knows how to spoil. And he knows when to be tough. I''m not that laid-back. School is just easy, and I don''t see any challenge. But you are right. I have to try to get good grade, not "good enough to pass".
I don''t know if I''ve sent you the mail to the right address. I deleted your mails, and just tried to recall it from my memory. That''s killing me now. If you don''t reply, either because you don''t care for me, or because I''ve guessed wrong.

I tried not to scream out loud when opening my mailbox and saw your mail. I was in the lab, and didn''t want to draw attention.
Okie, Wow.... haha I''m just so happy!
"Where there''s a way, there''s hope". I''m such an optimistic person. Yeah!! tomorrow is always another day.
I don''t know how it will turn out, nor can I foresee the future. But now, this man I likes want to give it another try.
I remember once you told me you are very persistent. I''m, too.
I think now I somewhat understand this saying which I read in this English box long time ago, "Love is a game. You have to learn how to play the rules. But in the end, you should forget the rules, and play with your heart"

I tried not to scream out loud when opening my mailbox and saw your mail. I was in the lab, and didn''t want to draw attention.
Okie, Wow.... haha I''m just so happy!
"Where there''s a way, there''s hope". I''m such an optimistic person. Yeah!! tomorrow is always another day.
I don''t know how it will turn out, nor can I foresee the future. But now, this man I likes want to give it another try.
I remember once you told me you are very persistent. I''m, too.
I think now I somewhat understand this saying which I read in this English box long time ago, "Love is a game. You have to learn how to play the rules. But in the end, you should forget the rules, and play with your heart"