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Wed Oct 22
When I was at hairdresser''s you called from strange Tel No. You asked where I was now & wondered little why at that time I have not returned home. It was about 6pm. You said your S-phone could not be used here in Hue. I asked when you return, you said you didn''t know exactly , about Saturday or Sunday. You talked with a halt, I felt you wanted to say something to me.Suddently I was afraid of ambiguous things.

Wed Oct 22
When I was at hairdresser''s you called from strange Tel No. You asked where I was now & wondered little why at that time I have not returned home. It was about 6pm. You said your S-phone could not be used here in Hue. I asked when you return, you said you didn''t know exactly , about Saturday or Sunday. You talked with a halt, I felt you wanted to say something to me.Suddently I was afraid of ambiguous things.

Thur Oct 23
I felt so bored . Sometime I could not understand our story.You were always so busy & cold while I need your kind interest to me so much.I found that it was nothing wrong with this wish .Why it''s so difficult for you to make me feel cheer, my darling. You had not much free time to me , or in fact you didn''t know how to arrange time for me & you didn''t attach much importance to this. It was problem with us.
Sometimes I found my feeling with you day by day go down.
It''s not my faul.I never want this, I felt so sad about it, you know ?
You didn''t call to me today.This morning I called to the Tel that you called to me yesterday. I guessed it was Tel No of the Hotel. But the receptionist said you just checked out 15 minutes before.

Thur Oct 23
I felt so bored . Sometime I could not understand our story.You were always so busy & cold while I need your kind interest to me so much.I found that it was nothing wrong with this wish .Why it''s so difficult for you to make me feel cheer, my darling. You had not much free time to me , or in fact you didn''t know how to arrange time for me & you didn''t attach much importance to this. It was problem with us.
Sometimes I found my feeling with you day by day go down.
It''s not my faul.I never want this, I felt so sad about it, you know ?
You didn''t call to me today.This morning I called to the Tel that you called to me yesterday. I guessed it was Tel No of the Hotel. But the receptionist said you just checked out 15 minutes before.

Sat Oct 25
P called to ask if you returned. I thinked that may be Sunday you came back. She was afraid that I would be sad, so she asked me to go out with them to paly bowling. But I refused. I felt bored and I didn''t like to do anything without you, spc on Sat .
6pm you called from your HP, it meaned you arrived Hanoi. You said you just returned. Now you was at your company . You even just played football with your company and your team won. So now all were trinking bear , so you asked me to wait you for some minutes.
7pm you came, you looked so tired. You sat & played with my niece. I asked you to go out, he asked" where do we go? I''m so tired." I said nothing. I wanted to talk much with you So you standed up & we went around & had dinner then returned. At my gate you saw me and asked " what''s matter?" Why you could asked a such question. You didn''t understand or you pretended as you didn''t know . I want to shout to you that I hate you . But I only said " I felt so bored. In deep" Then I came in without saying goodbye to you .
You standed there about 2 minutes then you returned. 5 minutes later you called me back & said " I know that you are angry with me now. But at the moment I have many difficult things to deal with and I don''t want you to have to be worried about this. So please let me alone & free in a short time, so that I can solve these matter.Are you agreed ?" . I felt sad & bored , so I said " Yes". You said "I will call to you later". Why our storyâ?Ts always bored & sad like this.

Sat Oct 25
P called to ask if you returned. I thinked that may be Sunday you came back. She was afraid that I would be sad, so she asked me to go out with them to paly bowling. But I refused. I felt bored and I didn''t like to do anything without you, spc on Sat .
6pm you called from your HP, it meaned you arrived Hanoi. You said you just returned. Now you was at your company . You even just played football with your company and your team won. So now all were trinking bear , so you asked me to wait you for some minutes.
7pm you came, you looked so tired. You sat & played with my niece. I asked you to go out, he asked" where do we go? I''m so tired." I said nothing. I wanted to talk much with you So you standed up & we went around & had dinner then returned. At my gate you saw me and asked " what''s matter?" Why you could asked a such question. You didn''t understand or you pretended as you didn''t know . I want to shout to you that I hate you . But I only said " I felt so bored. In deep" Then I came in without saying goodbye to you .
You standed there about 2 minutes then you returned. 5 minutes later you called me back & said " I know that you are angry with me now. But at the moment I have many difficult things to deal with and I don''t want you to have to be worried about this. So please let me alone & free in a short time, so that I can solve these matter.Are you agreed ?" . I felt sad & bored , so I said " Yes". You said "I will call to you later". Why our storyâ?Ts always bored & sad like this.

... I couldn''t open them a couple of days ago.... the password was always reported to be wrong... Hm, a lil bit strange since I have one password only for everything... Half an hour of trying again and again was probably enough to discourage me and I finally gave up that silly action. You know, the only thought occured in my mind was that "It must be God that changed my password, he doesnâ?Tt want me to read it again. He wants me to forget..." I was completely relieved with that thought, however, seems like I''ve never made it you know. I did try to open that full-of-experiences document again and this time.... the password was right. Was there sth wrong with the computer? I thought it would be another announcement of incorrect password but right in front of me now was "...." & "..." I have to say I give up right after a few sentences.... so painful... I don''t know why but the feelings of emptiness and lost were overwhelming inside Just a single word or a random action can remind me of you, all the things you said were still clearly enough to kill me softly. Tell me how long will I be able to get over you? .... Is it true that it takes a lifetime to forget someone?
So close no matter how far... I have you in my heart and nothing else matters...

... I couldn''t open them a couple of days ago.... the password was always reported to be wrong... Hm, a lil bit strange since I have one password only for everything... Half an hour of trying again and again was probably enough to discourage me and I finally gave up that silly action. You know, the only thought occured in my mind was that "It must be God that changed my password, he doesnâ?Tt want me to read it again. He wants me to forget..." I was completely relieved with that thought, however, seems like I''ve never made it you know. I did try to open that full-of-experiences document again and this time.... the password was right. Was there sth wrong with the computer? I thought it would be another announcement of incorrect password but right in front of me now was "...." & "..." I have to say I give up right after a few sentences.... so painful... I don''t know why but the feelings of emptiness and lost were overwhelming inside Just a single word or a random action can remind me of you, all the things you said were still clearly enough to kill me softly. Tell me how long will I be able to get over you? .... Is it true that it takes a lifetime to forget someone?
So close no matter how far... I have you in my heart and nothing else matters...

Tonight is Halloween. It''s really cold here in California.
I was kinda lazy tonight. Just stayed home, watched the news, and chatted with friends. I have three midterms next week. But I couldn''t force myself studying tonite. I will start tomorrow then.
I''ll have a Halloween party tomorrow. But I''m not sure I will go. Sometimes, I get lazy the last minute, and stay home instead. I''ve not been thinking a lot about a. Chau the past few days. Don''t know why.
Sometimes I look back at everything in the past. I wonder if i''ve gone too fast. Two months is not enough to understand, let alone, decide to stay with someone for the rest of my life.
My parents have promised to let me decide how I want to live my life, and whom I want to spend my life with. My mother said, "Now I won''t say anything. When you want to get married with someone, tell me then." I''ve stopped telling my sister stories about my relationship. This frees me to live the way I want, but at the same time, places more responsibility on my part. Actually, i feel kinda scared. But I know from now on, I''ll have to take charge of my life. I hope God will guide me. I only want to get married once and with the right man. And together, we''ll share happiness, and work through our problems. I don''t want to make mistake. i don''t want to get married, and then one partner thinks it''s wrong and calls it quit. But I need someone who is mature, too. I know I can be really stubborn sometimes, and cling to my beliefs (which may be wrong) and I need someone who knows how to deal with it. Who can look at the whole picture, and guide me.
I''ve dated younger men. But now I prefer older men. I really don''t know. When I know a. Châu, he gave me this feeling. Sometimes I closed my eyes, and tried to visualize his face. He''s nowhere near the man I imagined how my right man would be. i don''t mean he''s not cute. What I mean is he''s just different. He looks like Chinese. He''s just different from what I thought. But he''s really attractive. I think his personality makes him so attractive in my eyes.
But the truth is I haven''t understood him enough. ...

Tonight is Halloween. It''s really cold here in California.
I was kinda lazy tonight. Just stayed home, watched the news, and chatted with friends. I have three midterms next week. But I couldn''t force myself studying tonite. I will start tomorrow then.
I''ll have a Halloween party tomorrow. But I''m not sure I will go. Sometimes, I get lazy the last minute, and stay home instead. I''ve not been thinking a lot about a. Chau the past few days. Don''t know why.
Sometimes I look back at everything in the past. I wonder if i''ve gone too fast. Two months is not enough to understand, let alone, decide to stay with someone for the rest of my life.
My parents have promised to let me decide how I want to live my life, and whom I want to spend my life with. My mother said, "Now I won''t say anything. When you want to get married with someone, tell me then." I''ve stopped telling my sister stories about my relationship. This frees me to live the way I want, but at the same time, places more responsibility on my part. Actually, i feel kinda scared. But I know from now on, I''ll have to take charge of my life. I hope God will guide me. I only want to get married once and with the right man. And together, we''ll share happiness, and work through our problems. I don''t want to make mistake. i don''t want to get married, and then one partner thinks it''s wrong and calls it quit. But I need someone who is mature, too. I know I can be really stubborn sometimes, and cling to my beliefs (which may be wrong) and I need someone who knows how to deal with it. Who can look at the whole picture, and guide me.
I''ve dated younger men. But now I prefer older men. I really don''t know. When I know a. Châu, he gave me this feeling. Sometimes I closed my eyes, and tried to visualize his face. He''s nowhere near the man I imagined how my right man would be. i don''t mean he''s not cute. What I mean is he''s just different. He looks like Chinese. He''s just different from what I thought. But he''s really attractive. I think his personality makes him so attractive in my eyes.
But the truth is I haven''t understood him enough. ...