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What's wrong if a boy write diary? It's not abnormal at all...
You know Scorps, you can obviously see the difference between a girl and a boy's diary. Just take a look at what you and shtp posted. To a girl, the diary is sth of great importance. It's the place where she hides her sorrows, secrets or feelings for people... that she, in some ways, doesn't want to share with anyone else. In contrast, writing diary may seem weird to boys. They hardly tell anything they have on mind. You see, you talked a lot about your plans, what you did but nothing 'bout your emotional life.
Today is the first day of examination. Hm, I spent all night to learn by heart 11 pages of history. Sigh... I really wonder why we have to learn these things? I will probably forget most of them tomorrow.... Oh the education in Vietnam.... so banana!!!
Let's see what's waiting for me tomorrow? A test on geometry. I have to confess I'm not good at math, especially in this section... "dựng hình" Phép quay, phép vị tự.... they're all running in my head!!! So complicated!!!!!! Anyway, what must come must come....
Have a nice day, everyone!
I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves took it away.
I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away.
So I write your name in my heart, where no one can take it away and it'll be forever...

Hey Shtp, now I can see we share a lot of things in common. I read your profile last night and ...hmmmmz somewhat I found myself there. Let's see what you said...
...I do it all the time. Talk to myself. And it helps; sometimes, when I feel as if I am going to float away for ever and disappear into nothingness, the sound of my own voice makes me feel real again. I talk to myself silently, inside my head, for years, well no one else bothers listening to me so there doesn't seem much point wasting my breath on talking out loud. But sometimes, everything in my head got in such a muddle that I have to say things out loud to try to make sense of them...Every time I get angry, get sad, no one knows, just go upstairs and put some rock music on, shut my eyes.
Well, I have to say that I act exactly like you. I talk to myself a lot. Everytime I feel disappointed, then I just think why I should live on this life.... what if I suddenly disappear... everything still remains the same.... And Rock is a great friend of mine, too . It helps me a lot to calm myself. Your favourite band is Linkin park, isn't it? hm, I don't like Nu-metal much but LP is OK
People think they know me but they never understand that in my mind, it's totally a mess...
yeah, people always see me smiling and they assume that I'm a happy girl, a never-in-blue girl. Hardly do they find a frown on my face, but that's not the truth. I do my happy-go-lucky so well, I'm even fooling myself. It's so nice to be your friend, I'll write to you later
I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves took it away.
I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away.
So I write your name in my heart, where no one can take it away and it'll be forever...
Được britneybritney sửa chữa / chuyển vào 20:52 ngày 15/04/2003

Hey Shtp, now I can see we share a lot of things in common. I read your profile last night and ...hmmmmz somewhat I found myself there. Let's see what you said...
...I do it all the time. Talk to myself. And it helps; sometimes, when I feel as if I am going to float away for ever and disappear into nothingness, the sound of my own voice makes me feel real again. I talk to myself silently, inside my head, for years, well no one else bothers listening to me so there doesn't seem much point wasting my breath on talking out loud. But sometimes, everything in my head got in such a muddle that I have to say things out loud to try to make sense of them...Every time I get angry, get sad, no one knows, just go upstairs and put some rock music on, shut my eyes.
Well, I have to say that I act exactly like you. I talk to myself a lot. Everytime I feel disappointed, then I just think why I should live on this life.... what if I suddenly disappear... everything still remains the same.... And Rock is a great friend of mine, too . It helps me a lot to calm myself. Your favourite band is Linkin park, isn't it? hm, I don't like Nu-metal much but LP is OK
People think they know me but they never understand that in my mind, it's totally a mess...
yeah, people always see me smiling and they assume that I'm a happy girl, a never-in-blue girl. Hardly do they find a frown on my face, but that's not the truth. I do my happy-go-lucky so well, I'm even fooling myself. It's so nice to be your friend, I'll write to you later
I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves took it away.
I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away.
So I write your name in my heart, where no one can take it away and it'll be forever...
Được britneybritney sửa chữa / chuyển vào 20:52 ngày 15/04/2003

I used to listen to Ozzy all the time, but now i'm putting my head into LP much more and I find myself in their songs...I didn't know what stayed in my mind exactly, they came and told me all... That:
Therê?Ts something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming / confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling / I can?Tt seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence / I?Tm convinced
there's just too much pressure to take]
I?Tve felt this way before
So insecure
I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind
What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I / sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I / try to catch them red ?" handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don't understand
(You'll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]
...I want to find something i've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

...inside I realize
That I'm the one confused...
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
I don't know who to trust
No surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts set through dust
And the lies
I am
A little bit of loneliness
A little bit of disregard
A handful of complaints
A little bit insecure
A little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand
I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense.......
I will leave this place,
and go somewhere
you are not known.
Days might pass
without hearing your name.

ĐỈợc Shtp sửa chữa / chuyfn vào 19:52 ngày 16/04/2003

I used to listen to Ozzy all the time, but now i'm putting my head into LP much more and I find myself in their songs...I didn't know what stayed in my mind exactly, they came and told me all... That:
Therê?Ts something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming / confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling / I can?Tt seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
[Without a sense of confidence / I?Tm convinced
there's just too much pressure to take]
I?Tve felt this way before
So insecure
I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind
What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride / from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I / sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I / try to catch them red ?" handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
I want to be in another place
I hate when you say you don't understand
(You'll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy
A place for my head
I want to let go of the pain I've held so long
[Erase all the pain 'til it's gone]
...I want to find something i've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

...inside I realize
That I'm the one confused...
I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
I don't know who to trust
No surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts set through dust
And the lies
I am
A little bit of loneliness
A little bit of disregard
A handful of complaints
A little bit insecure
A little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand
I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense.......
I will leave this place,
and go somewhere
you are not known.
Days might pass
without hearing your name.

ĐỈợc Shtp sửa chữa / chuyfn vào 19:52 ngày 16/04/2003

I think you like Britney more than LP n' Ozzy , shtp
Let me see , Crawling , Runaway , A place 4 my head...quite a lot , he he .Where did u copy these ones , girl . Dont say u learnt these by heart yeh
BABY MAYBE SOMEDAY...
Được spider0127 sửa chữa / chuyển vào 17:44 ngày 17/04/2003

I think you like Britney more than LP n' Ozzy , shtp
Let me see , Crawling , Runaway , A place 4 my head...quite a lot , he he .Where did u copy these ones , girl . Dont say u learnt these by heart yeh
BABY MAYBE SOMEDAY...
Được spider0127 sửa chữa / chuyển vào 17:44 ngày 17/04/2003

I never try to learn them by heart lol. If I really like them, they themself will run into my heart, u c? I'm not scared to tell everybody that I do like Britney, and whatever put these strange things that I like her more than Lp and Os into yr head, I always keep my point. Just one thing, u can't compare Brit with LP or Os.That's all!
I want to be in another place.
I hate when you say you don't understand.
(You'll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy.
A place for my head.

I never try to learn them by heart lol. If I really like them, they themself will run into my heart, u c? I'm not scared to tell everybody that I do like Britney, and whatever put these strange things that I like her more than Lp and Os into yr head, I always keep my point. Just one thing, u can't compare Brit with LP or Os.That's all!
I want to be in another place.
I hate when you say you don't understand.
(You'll see it's not meant to be)
I want to be in the energy, not with the enemy.
A place for my head.

When I was little, I used to keep a diary. I poured my heart out in that diary. I wrote down everything that I couldn't tell others, even my sister.
Friends used to think of me as a reserved person. That was not true, actually. I might be reserved to them, but I was very open to my diary.
Because of that openness, I was afraid others might got a chance to break into my diary . It took me long to think of a way to prevent this. Finally, I came up with a solution. On the first page of my diary, I wrote a sentence in bold, big font size: Anyone who reads my diary is BAD
However, as time went by, I felt more and more vulnerable, thinking that prevention sentence might not work. So, I decided to burn it up.
It surprises me how much I've changed since I came to the US. I never thought I will one day, write my thinking down for others to look at .........