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I don''t know who I am. I''m lost. I want to break down and cry...and it''s funny..when I am lost..I''m lost alone. I want to be invisible..and transparent..so noone can see my tears, so I dont have to keep up pretences and smile my happy tears. I don''t want it..I don''t want anything.
I. I. I..Yes, many "I''s" because there has been none lately. I''m tired. I want..I don''t even know what I want. Must life be this cruel current that swirls me around..lower..sucking me in and won''t be content with me unless I was drained. I just want to be a leaf..a drifter..on the soft surface..wherever is fine. Just not here, not where I am.
Don''t judge me..no. No...please..don''t judge me. I will hide away if I could..just to be anonymous in the crowd..Let me go. Let go. I said! LET GO. You''re not letting go..why..why..why can''t you see me..I''m standing right here. Right here. Look at me. Why can''t you hear me..can''t you taste my tears..Where are you? Look at me!
I want to scream..louder..and louder..I think I am. Yet noone can hear me..I don''t think I can hear me either. I''m drowned in other noises. The superficial sounds that make my life empty. I''m sick. I need to be free from this..I need to pretend again..let me pretend. Let me pretend!
Go away..no. Let me go away instead. Let me run away. Far..far away..but please..come look for me..
"Gomen nasai....demo..A****erui Sayuri-san.."

I don''t know who I am. I''m lost. I want to break down and cry...and it''s funny..when I am lost..I''m lost alone. I want to be invisible..and transparent..so noone can see my tears, so I dont have to keep up pretences and smile my happy tears. I don''t want it..I don''t want anything.
I. I. I..Yes, many "I''s" because there has been none lately. I''m tired. I want..I don''t even know what I want. Must life be this cruel current that swirls me around..lower..sucking me in and won''t be content with me unless I was drained. I just want to be a leaf..a drifter..on the soft surface..wherever is fine. Just not here, not where I am.
Don''t judge me..no. No...please..don''t judge me. I will hide away if I could..just to be anonymous in the crowd..Let me go. Let go. I said! LET GO. You''re not letting go..why..why..why can''t you see me..I''m standing right here. Right here. Look at me. Why can''t you hear me..can''t you taste my tears..Where are you? Look at me!
I want to scream..louder..and louder..I think I am. Yet noone can hear me..I don''t think I can hear me either. I''m drowned in other noises. The superficial sounds that make my life empty. I''m sick. I need to be free from this..I need to pretend again..let me pretend. Let me pretend!
Go away..no. Let me go away instead. Let me run away. Far..far away..but please..come look for me..
"Gomen nasai....demo..A****erui Sayuri-san.."

Halls of justice painted green, money talking. Power wolves beset your door, hear them stalkingSoon youâ?Tll please their appetite, they devour. Hammer of justice crushes you overpowerThe ultimate in vanity, exploiting their supremacy. I canâ?Tt believe the things you say. I canâ?Tt believeI canâ?Tt believe the price you pay. Nothing can save youJustice is lost. Justice is raped. Justice is gone. Pulling your strings. Justice is done. Seeking no truthWinning is all, find it so grim, so true, so realApathy their stepping stone, so unfeeling. Hidden deep animosity, so deceiving. Through your eyes their light burnsHoping to find, inquisition sinking you with prying mindsLady justice has been raped, truth assassin. Rolls of red tape seal your lips, now youâ?Tre done in their money tips her scales againMake your deal, just what is truth? i cannot tell, cannot feel
 
You hear that? That is the sound of inevitability...

Halls of justice painted green, money talking. Power wolves beset your door, hear them stalkingSoon youâ?Tll please their appetite, they devour. Hammer of justice crushes you overpowerThe ultimate in vanity, exploiting their supremacy. I canâ?Tt believe the things you say. I canâ?Tt believeI canâ?Tt believe the price you pay. Nothing can save youJustice is lost. Justice is raped. Justice is gone. Pulling your strings. Justice is done. Seeking no truthWinning is all, find it so grim, so true, so realApathy their stepping stone, so unfeeling. Hidden deep animosity, so deceiving. Through your eyes their light burnsHoping to find, inquisition sinking you with prying mindsLady justice has been raped, truth assassin. Rolls of red tape seal your lips, now youâ?Tre done in their money tips her scales againMake your deal, just what is truth? i cannot tell, cannot feel
 
You hear that? That is the sound of inevitability...

Saturday night has finally come, all the tests and worries of school work are left behind and now Iõ?Tm sitting here all alone in my room, writing down some lines of diary as well as some hopefully-be-helpful things for my English club. Many things still left for me to do, yet time seems not to be enough for me, and I donõ?Tt want to waste this lovely time for those boring workõ?Ư Iõ?Tm waiting, what are you doing? Is it time?
The Internationõ?Ts Women day is coming and what have you guys done? Boys must have bought or made sth remarkably meaningful for his girlfriend huh, most girls are counting each second for that very special moment. For me, this is just an ordinary day except for the fact that weõ?Tll get flowers from the male classmates and have a school day off, so thereõ?Ts no need to worry about tests. Weõ?Tre all excited, wondering what the boys will do, they seem to have already had a full of surprise plan so letõ?Ts wait and see There might be a guitar performance for they play it beautifully and girls all love its romantic sounds.
H, just a number wrong but it wonõ?Tt be me who pick up the phone if you dial it. Ironic, isnõ?Tt it? I only phoned you once or twice but I donõ?Tt think your number can be erased in my mind. Meanwhile, youõ?Tve been calling me for quite while and now you couldnõ?Tt even memorise just 7 numbers. Nothingõ?Ư. But again, it does make me think a bit about who you are Do you ever remember those sweet days?


There can be miracles when you believeThough hope is frail, it's hard to killWho knows what miracle you can achieveWhen you believe... somehow you willYou will when you believe....

Saturday night has finally come, all the tests and worries of school work are left behind and now Iõ?Tm sitting here all alone in my room, writing down some lines of diary as well as some hopefully-be-helpful things for my English club. Many things still left for me to do, yet time seems not to be enough for me, and I donõ?Tt want to waste this lovely time for those boring workõ?Ư Iõ?Tm waiting, what are you doing? Is it time?
The Internationõ?Ts Women day is coming and what have you guys done? Boys must have bought or made sth remarkably meaningful for his girlfriend huh, most girls are counting each second for that very special moment. For me, this is just an ordinary day except for the fact that weõ?Tll get flowers from the male classmates and have a school day off, so thereõ?Ts no need to worry about tests. Weõ?Tre all excited, wondering what the boys will do, they seem to have already had a full of surprise plan so letõ?Ts wait and see There might be a guitar performance for they play it beautifully and girls all love its romantic sounds.
H, just a number wrong but it wonõ?Tt be me who pick up the phone if you dial it. Ironic, isnõ?Tt it? I only phoned you once or twice but I donõ?Tt think your number can be erased in my mind. Meanwhile, youõ?Tve been calling me for quite while and now you couldnõ?Tt even memorise just 7 numbers. Nothingõ?Ư. But again, it does make me think a bit about who you are Do you ever remember those sweet days?


There can be miracles when you believeThough hope is frail, it's hard to killWho knows what miracle you can achieveWhen you believe... somehow you willYou will when you believe....

i have not met u since last Thursday,miss u so much!
Nguoi ta kho vi thuong khong dung luc
Yeu sai duyen va men chang nham` nguoi`

i have not met u since last Thursday,miss u so much!
Nguoi ta kho vi thuong khong dung luc
Yeu sai duyen va men chang nham` nguoi`

What a boring day!
Today, I felt very terrible !
I have felt boring in everything I do.
The first, I met a old friend, I thought that it''s a happy, but after some minutes talked with her I was crazy because we bickered with each other over some trifle
The second, I must program a little program but I was very confused, till end of day the program has been unfinished
When I decided to relax one''s mind, I called a friend and Had not responding ... Crazy ....
Now, Final of boring time.. I am writting some words to here with hopping the nice day will come soon with me...
Thanks for sharing.
p/s: I am not good at English, Although I sill try to writting my diary by English to improve my English skills. If I make funny mistakes, Plz correct it for me. thanks again
Từ đó về đây sống rất nghèoBạn bè chỉ có gió trăng theoNhững phường bất nghĩa thôi đừng đếnHãy để hồn ta xanh cỏ rêu..

What a boring day!
Today, I felt very terrible !
I have felt boring in everything I do.
The first, I met a old friend, I thought that it''s a happy, but after some minutes talked with her I was crazy because we bickered with each other over some trifle
The second, I must program a little program but I was very confused, till end of day the program has been unfinished
When I decided to relax one''s mind, I called a friend and Had not responding ... Crazy ....
Now, Final of boring time.. I am writting some words to here with hopping the nice day will come soon with me...
Thanks for sharing.
p/s: I am not good at English, Although I sill try to writting my diary by English to improve my English skills. If I make funny mistakes, Plz correct it for me. thanks again
Từ đó về đây sống rất nghèoBạn bè chỉ có gió trăng theoNhững phường bất nghĩa thôi đừng đếnHãy để hồn ta xanh cỏ rêu..