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Hi English club, I''m back. I''ve just arrived here in Switzerland, well a lil bit tired after a long long trip but things are getting better I''m so happy to see English club going on well without me

Hi English club, I''m back. I''ve just arrived here in Switzerland, well a lil bit tired after a long long trip but things are getting better I''m so happy to see English club going on well without me

Hi everybody, testing testing 1 2 3 4 5
I feel moody today. It''s been a long time ago i haven''t felt like this. I''m lovesick again. I want to share some words, just to have a communication, to make myself feel better.
May 21st 2004, big day, prom day.
Rebecca, my host mother''s niece, my prom date. She''s on 10th grade and I''m a senior, 12th grade.
Rebecca stepped into the living room where I and everybody else was waiting. She wore an orange dress, white and yellow roses in her hands. Her hair was made delicately. Pretty face. A forever sadness in her eyes. I smiled when I saw her. She didn''t.
We got to the school, took pictures, met people, attended the Grand March, nothing much to say. After the Grand March, all seniors board the bus to go to a luxury restaurant. We got there, it was raining. I took off my jacket, put it on her naked shoulders. She looked at me and smiled, a perfect smile, the corner of her mouth went up naturally, her eyes on mine. I put my hand on her waist, outside of the jacket, escorted her in to the lakeside restaurant.
In there, we had dinner. I kept my eyes on her. I saw she smiled at the jokes of other people at the dinner table. She smiled when she saw a couple of swans on the lake through the window. She is so beautiful.
After dinner, the music is on, everybody got up and dance. I said to her "Do you want to teach me how to dance?" We went to the dancing space. That was actually the first time I danced. After 1 or 2 songs, I began to get used to the fast-paced music and moved myself to it. Suddenly, a slow song began. I didn''t know what to do. Rebecca moved closer to me, put her hands on my shoulders, around my neck. Nobody told me, I just put my hands naturally around her waist. We moved slowly, smoothly to the music. I could feel she breathing, I could feel her warmth on my face. She turn her head a little aside. I saw a side of her neck, shaped beautifully and covered with a tender smell. Her cheeks were red from the heat, her eyes stared at nowhere over my shoulder. That was the first time I stayed that close to a girl. The love song was singing "...You are wonderful tonight..." I wanted to kiss her lovely cheek. But I didn''t. The chance has passed, music stopped. Another jumping-around song began.
After the prom we got home, and got ready for the post-prom. The post-prom were held at the school cafeteria. We went there, played games, ate, drank, took pictures. But most the time, I sat with her at the table. Most the time in silence. Suddenly, I said, awkwardly, "You''re so nice tonight. Thank you so much for that." She just smiled at me and looked away. Then fell the silence again. I looked at her perfect face. She''s still staring at the space. She''s thinking something. She seemed a little awkward. She bitten her lips like she''s nervous. Her eyes were wide. I felt the urge, I wanted to kiss her, to occupy her lips with mine. But once again, I didn''t have enough courage to do it. I cursed myself, sighed, and looked away. What a coward I am!
We got home at about 4 o''clock in the morning. She would be picked up in morning after some sleep. She went to sleep in the living room. I sat in the kitchen for a while. I didn''t want to sleep. I was afraid if I slept, then she would be gone in the morning when I got up, and leave in me a space that I can never be filled. I was in love with her, Rebecca.
now I''m thinking about it. Rebecca has been to many dances. And she''ll have a lot more in next 2 years of highschool. Who am I, am I something special that she can remember among her dance dates. Oh, I know. I don''t care how will our relationship become. I just want to do what I meant to do. I want to kiss her, and that''s enough. I promise to myself I will.

Hi everybody, testing testing 1 2 3 4 5
I feel moody today. It''s been a long time ago i haven''t felt like this. I''m lovesick again. I want to share some words, just to have a communication, to make myself feel better.
May 21st 2004, big day, prom day.
Rebecca, my host mother''s niece, my prom date. She''s on 10th grade and I''m a senior, 12th grade.
Rebecca stepped into the living room where I and everybody else was waiting. She wore an orange dress, white and yellow roses in her hands. Her hair was made delicately. Pretty face. A forever sadness in her eyes. I smiled when I saw her. She didn''t.
We got to the school, took pictures, met people, attended the Grand March, nothing much to say. After the Grand March, all seniors board the bus to go to a luxury restaurant. We got there, it was raining. I took off my jacket, put it on her naked shoulders. She looked at me and smiled, a perfect smile, the corner of her mouth went up naturally, her eyes on mine. I put my hand on her waist, outside of the jacket, escorted her in to the lakeside restaurant.
In there, we had dinner. I kept my eyes on her. I saw she smiled at the jokes of other people at the dinner table. She smiled when she saw a couple of swans on the lake through the window. She is so beautiful.
After dinner, the music is on, everybody got up and dance. I said to her "Do you want to teach me how to dance?" We went to the dancing space. That was actually the first time I danced. After 1 or 2 songs, I began to get used to the fast-paced music and moved myself to it. Suddenly, a slow song began. I didn''t know what to do. Rebecca moved closer to me, put her hands on my shoulders, around my neck. Nobody told me, I just put my hands naturally around her waist. We moved slowly, smoothly to the music. I could feel she breathing, I could feel her warmth on my face. She turn her head a little aside. I saw a side of her neck, shaped beautifully and covered with a tender smell. Her cheeks were red from the heat, her eyes stared at nowhere over my shoulder. That was the first time I stayed that close to a girl. The love song was singing "...You are wonderful tonight..." I wanted to kiss her lovely cheek. But I didn''t. The chance has passed, music stopped. Another jumping-around song began.
After the prom we got home, and got ready for the post-prom. The post-prom were held at the school cafeteria. We went there, played games, ate, drank, took pictures. But most the time, I sat with her at the table. Most the time in silence. Suddenly, I said, awkwardly, "You''re so nice tonight. Thank you so much for that." She just smiled at me and looked away. Then fell the silence again. I looked at her perfect face. She''s still staring at the space. She''s thinking something. She seemed a little awkward. She bitten her lips like she''s nervous. Her eyes were wide. I felt the urge, I wanted to kiss her, to occupy her lips with mine. But once again, I didn''t have enough courage to do it. I cursed myself, sighed, and looked away. What a coward I am!
We got home at about 4 o''clock in the morning. She would be picked up in morning after some sleep. She went to sleep in the living room. I sat in the kitchen for a while. I didn''t want to sleep. I was afraid if I slept, then she would be gone in the morning when I got up, and leave in me a space that I can never be filled. I was in love with her, Rebecca.
now I''m thinking about it. Rebecca has been to many dances. And she''ll have a lot more in next 2 years of highschool. Who am I, am I something special that she can remember among her dance dates. Oh, I know. I don''t care how will our relationship become. I just want to do what I meant to do. I want to kiss her, and that''s enough. I promise to myself I will.

Welcome back EC, dear Brit, thế là tiếp tục sự nghiệp làm MOD của mình nhé. Have good journey!

Welcome back EC, dear Brit, thế là tiếp tục sự nghiệp làm MOD của mình nhé. Have good journey!

Hi guys,
I''m totally new here. haha I''m tellin'' u why i''m here.
I''ve just been back to VN so I''m lookin'' for a simcard for my cellfone. My friend showed me this site. I haven''t found any for my fone yet.Anyway I find this forum and there''r lots to do with it. How lucky I''m!.
Actually my English is not so good and during my time in Vn I dont wanna lose it all. So the best way is to write somethin'' in E frequently. I first decided to write a diary. I kept writing for almost 4 months then recognized that my terrible bro had read all of it . Oh God, I hated my bro for a while ''cause there were somethin'' bout a boy I shouldn''t have loved, some stupid things ''bout me that others shouldnt know. He knew everything then tried to make me fool. Damn it! Then, sadly, I burned my dear diary and sweared that I wud never write another diary ....
Hey, but here im. I think it''s a good idea to join u. I can share my feelings huh?
Today isn''t so nice to me. Actually, I had an English exam . You know, at the end of each semester there is stuff to do. It was so stressful. I HAD TO do it well just because I used to be abroad.
The exam was ****. There was a writing part which cost 2 mark. haha, the topic was: What do u think of Vnese economic policies? in 150 words. How ridiculous! In 150 words what could I write and unfortunately I dont know well ''bout the policies. Moreover my grammar is not so good to do 100% right.
Diary, I hate Vnese exams. whatever, why in Vn peple have to learn everything by heart in order to have their exams done well? I cant learn things by heart!!!
Dang, I hate today....

Hi guys,
I''m totally new here. haha I''m tellin'' u why i''m here.
I''ve just been back to VN so I''m lookin'' for a simcard for my cellfone. My friend showed me this site. I haven''t found any for my fone yet.Anyway I find this forum and there''r lots to do with it. How lucky I''m!.
Actually my English is not so good and during my time in Vn I dont wanna lose it all. So the best way is to write somethin'' in E frequently. I first decided to write a diary. I kept writing for almost 4 months then recognized that my terrible bro had read all of it . Oh God, I hated my bro for a while ''cause there were somethin'' bout a boy I shouldn''t have loved, some stupid things ''bout me that others shouldnt know. He knew everything then tried to make me fool. Damn it! Then, sadly, I burned my dear diary and sweared that I wud never write another diary ....
Hey, but here im. I think it''s a good idea to join u. I can share my feelings huh?
Today isn''t so nice to me. Actually, I had an English exam . You know, at the end of each semester there is stuff to do. It was so stressful. I HAD TO do it well just because I used to be abroad.
The exam was ****. There was a writing part which cost 2 mark. haha, the topic was: What do u think of Vnese economic policies? in 150 words. How ridiculous! In 150 words what could I write and unfortunately I dont know well ''bout the policies. Moreover my grammar is not so good to do 100% right.
Diary, I hate Vnese exams. whatever, why in Vn peple have to learn everything by heart in order to have their exams done well? I cant learn things by heart!!!
Dang, I hate today....

What do we know. I failed my driving test today. I passed most sections actually and was doing really well, and she kept on complimenting me. To this one point when I was driving back to the centre and she was telling me how good I was, I did this huge mistake that costed me an automatic fail. Still I blame her for talking to me because I was very distracted. Either way. A fail is a fail. I''m taking one again on the 22nd of June.
I''m also thinking about moving forward my departure..so if all goes well, probably 24th of June will be the date. If that is the case, I shall also have to move back my going away party (I''m such a loser, a month to go and I''m already planning it. But I suppose I should be since I''ll be so busy with exams). Am I going to miss this place? I don''t know....I will be lonely where I''m going. I will miss everyone, but the place itself..I don''t know. I''m angry at it that it has no mercy for me. That I can be surrounded by people yet still feel lonely..that when I walk in the park and see the leaves fall, I remember...all those memories (that are supposed to have gone...). When the sky cries, when it rains..I remember. I could almost taste each and every drop..the acute pain like pins on my skin, on my face. And when I cry...when the tears fall.. The rain doesn''t dissolve my tears. They still stand out, hot and salty...and I can still feel pain. I cannot be here any longer...
I''m sad today...I don''t know whether I want to cry, or whether I just want to sit here pretending to be numb knowing that I''m feeling rather sad inside. Maybe it''s all getting to me. Maybe I''m not even sad about failing, but I''m more sad that when I remember back to this day last year when I failed...he was there for me. He was there and he made everything sad or horrid go away...Now I know the price I must pay when I put all my happiness dependent on just one individual. Everyone is human and eventually...at some point or another, they will let me down. I have been let down..and I''m still coming to term with this -sudden- hole in my life. Who is going to fill it up? I don''t know. Maybe I feel bitter. I feel bitter that I put all of me into a person, who...wasn''t who I thought to be, and now I''ve lost myself. I can''t get any of it back because they''re being an arsehole about it and won''t let me have me back (if that made any sense).
And the 2nd of June..would have been my one year anniversary. I don''t even know what to think about it. I suppose I shouldn''t dwell on the past, and shouldn''t think too much about it..esepcially when they don''t give a crap about me. But I cannot help myself...I''m still lost. Terribly so. I don''t know what I''m going to do now when a problem comes to me. Because before..i knew who to came to and I knew that they could make my problem go away. It''s not family..it''s not friend..perhaps it is all in me and what I make it out to be. Right now I am so lost I don''t even know what I''m talking about even.... I''m just lost..
I''m going to make note to myself to never let myself go as far as I did ever again in my life..So far, maybe I''ll never quite recover.
Aside from that..for all those interested. I kicked gluteus maximuses (arses) in my presentation. And according to the teacher''s feedbacks, my presentation was fun, engaging and the best of all (I had almost 10 questions asked by people at the end and I answered them all). So yeah..I''m quite proud of that. Not too proud when it comes to my driving test..but I will have to pass one day right?
If...a person''s life is a book. And everyone they meet write lines in those books..Some peopple have alot to write, and some have nothing at all. Some stay in the book forever, some...fade away with time. I wonder if I had written anything worthwhile in anyone''s book. I wonder if when I leave, their pages will be empty...that they will remember my lines, or if the lines will fade away with time. I wonder if they like what I write..I wonder if every once in awhile, they turn back the pages to read what I wrote...I can only wonder. But I plan to oneday, write alot in as many books as i can, about how special they really are, so whenever they don''t feel special, they can think of me...look at my lines and know that they''re special...

What do we know. I failed my driving test today. I passed most sections actually and was doing really well, and she kept on complimenting me. To this one point when I was driving back to the centre and she was telling me how good I was, I did this huge mistake that costed me an automatic fail. Still I blame her for talking to me because I was very distracted. Either way. A fail is a fail. I''m taking one again on the 22nd of June.
I''m also thinking about moving forward my departure..so if all goes well, probably 24th of June will be the date. If that is the case, I shall also have to move back my going away party (I''m such a loser, a month to go and I''m already planning it. But I suppose I should be since I''ll be so busy with exams). Am I going to miss this place? I don''t know....I will be lonely where I''m going. I will miss everyone, but the place itself..I don''t know. I''m angry at it that it has no mercy for me. That I can be surrounded by people yet still feel lonely..that when I walk in the park and see the leaves fall, I remember...all those memories (that are supposed to have gone...). When the sky cries, when it rains..I remember. I could almost taste each and every drop..the acute pain like pins on my skin, on my face. And when I cry...when the tears fall.. The rain doesn''t dissolve my tears. They still stand out, hot and salty...and I can still feel pain. I cannot be here any longer...
I''m sad today...I don''t know whether I want to cry, or whether I just want to sit here pretending to be numb knowing that I''m feeling rather sad inside. Maybe it''s all getting to me. Maybe I''m not even sad about failing, but I''m more sad that when I remember back to this day last year when I failed...he was there for me. He was there and he made everything sad or horrid go away...Now I know the price I must pay when I put all my happiness dependent on just one individual. Everyone is human and eventually...at some point or another, they will let me down. I have been let down..and I''m still coming to term with this -sudden- hole in my life. Who is going to fill it up? I don''t know. Maybe I feel bitter. I feel bitter that I put all of me into a person, who...wasn''t who I thought to be, and now I''ve lost myself. I can''t get any of it back because they''re being an arsehole about it and won''t let me have me back (if that made any sense).
And the 2nd of June..would have been my one year anniversary. I don''t even know what to think about it. I suppose I shouldn''t dwell on the past, and shouldn''t think too much about it..esepcially when they don''t give a crap about me. But I cannot help myself...I''m still lost. Terribly so. I don''t know what I''m going to do now when a problem comes to me. Because before..i knew who to came to and I knew that they could make my problem go away. It''s not family..it''s not friend..perhaps it is all in me and what I make it out to be. Right now I am so lost I don''t even know what I''m talking about even.... I''m just lost..
I''m going to make note to myself to never let myself go as far as I did ever again in my life..So far, maybe I''ll never quite recover.
Aside from that..for all those interested. I kicked gluteus maximuses (arses) in my presentation. And according to the teacher''s feedbacks, my presentation was fun, engaging and the best of all (I had almost 10 questions asked by people at the end and I answered them all). So yeah..I''m quite proud of that. Not too proud when it comes to my driving test..but I will have to pass one day right?
If...a person''s life is a book. And everyone they meet write lines in those books..Some peopple have alot to write, and some have nothing at all. Some stay in the book forever, some...fade away with time. I wonder if I had written anything worthwhile in anyone''s book. I wonder if when I leave, their pages will be empty...that they will remember my lines, or if the lines will fade away with time. I wonder if they like what I write..I wonder if every once in awhile, they turn back the pages to read what I wrote...I can only wonder. But I plan to oneday, write alot in as many books as i can, about how special they really are, so whenever they don''t feel special, they can think of me...look at my lines and know that they''re special...