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Oh, thank u so much,tnlt and sensitivesoul.I like all those roses.After writing diary this afternoon, i didn''t go to sleep.i spent time reading all cards that i have recieved since i was at my secondary school.And then I went to my extra class.hic, i must say that my teacher is so strange.He has effective methods of teaching but he can''t stop making us laugh for a minute.sometimes i don''t like his joking but it made me feel more interested in the lessons.however, i must thank him.Today some friends phoned to talk to me and i feel very surprised.and recieving roses from EC''s members made me surprised and happy too.i think my wishes r becoming true. everyone care about me and i like to think that i''m a lovely girl. Thanks everyone and wish all of u the best.

Oh, thank u so much,tnlt and sensitivesoul.I like all those roses.After writing diary this afternoon, i didn''t go to sleep.i spent time reading all cards that i have recieved since i was at my secondary school.And then I went to my extra class.hic, i must say that my teacher is so strange.He has effective methods of teaching but he can''t stop making us laugh for a minute.sometimes i don''t like his joking but it made me feel more interested in the lessons.however, i must thank him.Today some friends phoned to talk to me and i feel very surprised.and recieving roses from EC''s members made me surprised and happy too.i think my wishes r becoming true. everyone care about me and i like to think that i''m a lovely girl. Thanks everyone and wish all of u the best.

This morning i had to get up earlier than usual so I''m sleepy now, hic hic.I only want to go to sleep immediately but if my mother know ''bout my plan, perhaps she will ........I''m waiting for a friend.She told me that she would come to my house today and i must prepare much food for her.i''m thinking what we will do besides eating and chatting.perhaps we can sing and dance together.so today is a lovely day too. Yesterday one of my friend told me that i was the most optimistic girl he has met.hahaha.is it true?i don''t know but perhaps it''s right.wish all of u a lovely day like me.bb everyone.

This morning i had to get up earlier than usual so I''m sleepy now, hic hic.I only want to go to sleep immediately but if my mother know ''bout my plan, perhaps she will ........I''m waiting for a friend.She told me that she would come to my house today and i must prepare much food for her.i''m thinking what we will do besides eating and chatting.perhaps we can sing and dance together.so today is a lovely day too. Yesterday one of my friend told me that i was the most optimistic girl he has met.hahaha.is it true?i don''t know but perhaps it''s right.wish all of u a lovely day like me.bb everyone.

Saturday, so sad. why I''m sad, I don''t know. my friend said I''m an optimistic person. Maybe, so I must overcome this time. I don''t know what I should do, I just don''t want to do anything. I feel so tired.

Saturday, so sad. why I''m sad, I don''t know. my friend said I''m an optimistic person. Maybe, so I must overcome this time. I don''t know what I should do, I just don''t want to do anything. I feel so tired.

August 1, 2004.
What is going on inside me? What does it mean? I''m feeling extremely uncomfortable, kind of ambivalent but I just don''t know why. Am I trying to pretend, to run away from my deep down emotions? yes, I admit that my mind is filled with the picture of you, an angel''s face with a mischevious smile. If only I could do something to block you out, tell me how. I am so ashamed of myself, of all the ridiculous things I''ve said, you must have thought I was exceedingly weird, huh? Alright, no one is perfect, isn''t it? I am no exception. This is getting increasingly crazy each day , I''d better stop right now.
Well, a brand new month has come, accompanying series of things I have to handle before it is too late and all I can do is cry. I by no means want to see that day, never have I shed a tear for myself, hence concentrating on my goal and working single-mindedly to attain it is the only way out. I have dreams and I will realise them somehow, I swear. The initial thing I should probably do is to set up a timetable so that I will no longer have to consider what do to do first and then find myself in a total mess and finally, just sit there thinking of nothing. I have wasted enough of my time. It is two months left before the nightmare of TOEFL and SAT come. Indeed, TOEFL is not really a tough test to tackle, yet SAT conversely is. The words are now jumping in my head even though I''m just 1/4 all the way, not to mention the terrifying math section . Everybody keeps going "Oh, the math is quite easy, you may get 800 if you work hard" blah blah blah, anyway, the fact is that I suck at Maths. Ironic as it is, I always make trivial mistakes, which definitely will hinder me from acquiring a satisfactory score . Still there are various obstacles to worry about, like my grades at school, application essay and a whole lots of other things . I am tired and discouraged at times, actually, but there''s no way I give it up. My brother is pretty successful, having already obtained a Master degree in England two years ago and is now working assiduously to get a doctoral one, at the age of 26. Looking at me, people think it''s inevitable that I will make it just like my brother. That was him, this is me, he and I are nothing alike, they''re confusing day with night. I abhored being compared this way. However, it is kind of a good motivation for me in some way. I don''t want to be left behind, to be laughed at...
Oops, what is that dreadful sound? My lovely cat is screaming outside, craving for my clemency to let her meet my neighbor''s ugly cat, her boyfriend I guess. I feel pitiful for her, she almost has no freedom but I can''t let her out, you know, the cat kidnappers are out there and who knows what might happen to her. To a certain extent, I see myself in the wretched cat and I am playing the role of nobody else but my parents. I want freedom, I want to jump into life and deal with it all by myself, I want to spend time with my friends, not just these silent walls... How come they have no faith in me? I am old enough to know the right things to do...

August 1, 2004.
What is going on inside me? What does it mean? I''m feeling extremely uncomfortable, kind of ambivalent but I just don''t know why. Am I trying to pretend, to run away from my deep down emotions? yes, I admit that my mind is filled with the picture of you, an angel''s face with a mischevious smile. If only I could do something to block you out, tell me how. I am so ashamed of myself, of all the ridiculous things I''ve said, you must have thought I was exceedingly weird, huh? Alright, no one is perfect, isn''t it? I am no exception. This is getting increasingly crazy each day , I''d better stop right now.
Well, a brand new month has come, accompanying series of things I have to handle before it is too late and all I can do is cry. I by no means want to see that day, never have I shed a tear for myself, hence concentrating on my goal and working single-mindedly to attain it is the only way out. I have dreams and I will realise them somehow, I swear. The initial thing I should probably do is to set up a timetable so that I will no longer have to consider what do to do first and then find myself in a total mess and finally, just sit there thinking of nothing. I have wasted enough of my time. It is two months left before the nightmare of TOEFL and SAT come. Indeed, TOEFL is not really a tough test to tackle, yet SAT conversely is. The words are now jumping in my head even though I''m just 1/4 all the way, not to mention the terrifying math section . Everybody keeps going "Oh, the math is quite easy, you may get 800 if you work hard" blah blah blah, anyway, the fact is that I suck at Maths. Ironic as it is, I always make trivial mistakes, which definitely will hinder me from acquiring a satisfactory score . Still there are various obstacles to worry about, like my grades at school, application essay and a whole lots of other things . I am tired and discouraged at times, actually, but there''s no way I give it up. My brother is pretty successful, having already obtained a Master degree in England two years ago and is now working assiduously to get a doctoral one, at the age of 26. Looking at me, people think it''s inevitable that I will make it just like my brother. That was him, this is me, he and I are nothing alike, they''re confusing day with night. I abhored being compared this way. However, it is kind of a good motivation for me in some way. I don''t want to be left behind, to be laughed at...
Oops, what is that dreadful sound? My lovely cat is screaming outside, craving for my clemency to let her meet my neighbor''s ugly cat, her boyfriend I guess. I feel pitiful for her, she almost has no freedom but I can''t let her out, you know, the cat kidnappers are out there and who knows what might happen to her. To a certain extent, I see myself in the wretched cat and I am playing the role of nobody else but my parents. I want freedom, I want to jump into life and deal with it all by myself, I want to spend time with my friends, not just these silent walls... How come they have no faith in me? I am old enough to know the right things to do...

Ok, that''s enough for emotional thoughts, let me tell my dear diary a bit ''bout my Sunday, one for film only. Well, not until 3 o''clock did I go to bed last night, since I couldn''t sleep with a wet wet hair, it''s just a bad habit of mine, I love taking a bath at midnight regardless of how unfavorable it may seems. I still managed to wake up at 7 this morning, though, with the efficient help of two alarm clocks and my dad''s cell phone. After washing my face, the first thing I did was connecting to the Internet to see if my friend left me any offline messages but sadly, nothing appeared . I was nervous, wondering what if I cannot get the tickets for the movie. How funny it was, I went upstairs and fell asleep again, until it was 8. I had to call beeminh, fortunately, he answered in the end. Now, the problem was that the cinema''s address is at 17 Ly Nam De, I thought it was at Ly Thuong Kiet, where I had seen several movies with TTVN members a few months ago. My friend, Thành, and I both seemed to mistake Ly Nam De for Mai Hac De and nearly got lost. I am at no time good at memorising Hanoi''s streets, even though it''s perfectly familiary to me, while my friend has just returned home for nearly a month. We went round and round, through numerous streets but managed to get there in time, exactly at 9.00 A.M. Poor beeminh, he had to wait for me and thus, couldn''t find a nice seat, when we came in, the cinema was fully packed. It was completely my fault, hichic . Anyhow, I hope they did enjoy the film, Shrek 2, we all laughed a lot . It is an amazing movie with marvelous scenery, touching music and above all, each of the characters have their own particular traits. I love the hilarious donkey and the animated cat most, espcially when he shows his naive face , it is so cute that everybody claps their hands.
After the first movie, beeminh, his younger brother, who is also an English club member, along with Thanh played half life for a while. I had to go with them, for sure, yet I didn''t understand anything, for all I know, this is a "bao luc" game hehe, they just try to kill others . We got out of that cacophonous place at last and headed for New Age cinema for the second movie - Tho San. Totally different from Shrek, this is an action movie, I cannot deny that I was a bit frightened and strained, it''s like if you''re distracted for a moment, you will lose track of what is going on. It was exciting, I enjoyed the movie a lot. The film ended around 15 to 2, whilst the third movie we booked would be shown at 3, so we went for lunch and again, wandered around. I will remember this day in my life, my friend wanted to me to ride his motorbike. God, I have never done it before, scared and excited, that was how I felt. Thanks, Thanh, for giving me the very first lesson. The third film was not "Freaky Friday" as we thougth at first, but "Mean girls" instead, a movie made for teenagers like us. I arrived at home round 5. Dad was right there at the gate, asking me why I didn''t call . Well, I didn''t do it just because he said he was going out, I totally had no idea whether he would come home for lunch. In the last movie, Lola almost loses her friend for lying too much, and it makes me think of myself. I have never been a liar, but I have to fabricate imaginary things when asking for permissions to go out all the time. Today, I decided to say just the truth. I went to the movie with my friend, and there were only 2, so what? If a girl goes out with a boy, can''t they simply be normal friends?My parents are unsensibly skeptical . Anyway, my critical mom is now on her vacation, so things went smoothly, my dad didn''t ask much. At least, I don''t have *****ffer from compunction any longer .

Ok, that''s enough for emotional thoughts, let me tell my dear diary a bit ''bout my Sunday, one for film only. Well, not until 3 o''clock did I go to bed last night, since I couldn''t sleep with a wet wet hair, it''s just a bad habit of mine, I love taking a bath at midnight regardless of how unfavorable it may seems. I still managed to wake up at 7 this morning, though, with the efficient help of two alarm clocks and my dad''s cell phone. After washing my face, the first thing I did was connecting to the Internet to see if my friend left me any offline messages but sadly, nothing appeared . I was nervous, wondering what if I cannot get the tickets for the movie. How funny it was, I went upstairs and fell asleep again, until it was 8. I had to call beeminh, fortunately, he answered in the end. Now, the problem was that the cinema''s address is at 17 Ly Nam De, I thought it was at Ly Thuong Kiet, where I had seen several movies with TTVN members a few months ago. My friend, Thành, and I both seemed to mistake Ly Nam De for Mai Hac De and nearly got lost. I am at no time good at memorising Hanoi''s streets, even though it''s perfectly familiary to me, while my friend has just returned home for nearly a month. We went round and round, through numerous streets but managed to get there in time, exactly at 9.00 A.M. Poor beeminh, he had to wait for me and thus, couldn''t find a nice seat, when we came in, the cinema was fully packed. It was completely my fault, hichic . Anyhow, I hope they did enjoy the film, Shrek 2, we all laughed a lot . It is an amazing movie with marvelous scenery, touching music and above all, each of the characters have their own particular traits. I love the hilarious donkey and the animated cat most, espcially when he shows his naive face , it is so cute that everybody claps their hands.
After the first movie, beeminh, his younger brother, who is also an English club member, along with Thanh played half life for a while. I had to go with them, for sure, yet I didn''t understand anything, for all I know, this is a "bao luc" game hehe, they just try to kill others . We got out of that cacophonous place at last and headed for New Age cinema for the second movie - Tho San. Totally different from Shrek, this is an action movie, I cannot deny that I was a bit frightened and strained, it''s like if you''re distracted for a moment, you will lose track of what is going on. It was exciting, I enjoyed the movie a lot. The film ended around 15 to 2, whilst the third movie we booked would be shown at 3, so we went for lunch and again, wandered around. I will remember this day in my life, my friend wanted to me to ride his motorbike. God, I have never done it before, scared and excited, that was how I felt. Thanks, Thanh, for giving me the very first lesson. The third film was not "Freaky Friday" as we thougth at first, but "Mean girls" instead, a movie made for teenagers like us. I arrived at home round 5. Dad was right there at the gate, asking me why I didn''t call . Well, I didn''t do it just because he said he was going out, I totally had no idea whether he would come home for lunch. In the last movie, Lola almost loses her friend for lying too much, and it makes me think of myself. I have never been a liar, but I have to fabricate imaginary things when asking for permissions to go out all the time. Today, I decided to say just the truth. I went to the movie with my friend, and there were only 2, so what? If a girl goes out with a boy, can''t they simply be normal friends?My parents are unsensibly skeptical . Anyway, my critical mom is now on her vacation, so things went smoothly, my dad didn''t ask much. At least, I don''t have *****ffer from compunction any longer .