Diary....

The weather is so dismal these days. The rain has stopped pouring yet who knows what it will be tomorrow? I am still upset about myself. I am still upset about the mid-term test. Had I been more diligent, I could have done the test better. Had I not overestimated myself, I could have spent more time revising all the notes. It was really a humiliating moment when I got my score. I just wanted to run away. I could not even look at the teacher. I felt like I was a coward. Then I wonder what is my real aim of studying. For myself? Exactly, but that is not all. How ironic to confess that what I have been doing is to impress my people, my friends, my whatever. I try to get good marks because I hope my friends will compliment me on my ability. I participate in class discussion because I want to attract others?T attention. I want people to know that I?Tm a confident and competent student. Who knows that from the very inside, I?Tm just a diffident one. I am always obsessed with inferiority complex. I ?Tm afraid that people might look down on me. These things have been driving me insane for a very long time. Once I stopped and asked myself if I?T?Tm chasing after illusion. Is life that unreal?
After all, it?Ts my fault that I am undergoing all this. It?Ts totally mine.
The weather is dismal, but I really enjoy it.
Được vhieuanh sửa chữa / chuyển vào 22:04 ngày 01/11/2008

Life is not what it gives to you.
It is how you react to it.
Be happy, my fellow!

It?Ts been a hard week for me, really hard. Feel hurt inside. It?Ts been a lon glong time since I closed the door to my heart but once I opened it, it got hurt. Timê?Ts gone by so quickly. It?Ts just a short time but never will I forget it. Hê?Ts just like a wind breathing a new life to me. Gotta face the truth now. Gotta leave all behind, sweet words, sweet memories. The fall is over?.
Love is never to say sorry ?.

oh man ! i think i can understand what u feel inside.my heart also has closed for a long time untill i meet her, an angel ( of course, it''s my point of view ^^) . i love her but she love the man who have the free smiles . i dont so i lost however i cant stop loving her...hahahha I just want to laugh at myself....what a stupid !

Though I don''t know you, it pisses me off seeing the girls down by emotional things . Be strong, girl! God be with you!

Frankly in everybody''s eyes, I''m a strong strong girl but don''t they know that everybody needs love, everybody needs a shoulder to lean on ... and even a girl like me sometimes can be torn down ... Feel much better now, I can live well without him, even though the memories are still alive, still present whenever I meet such old things. Don''t u know that Ev''ry thing that i hold in is ev''ry thing i cant let go ......
@pinkkira: Therê?Ts no stupid things, stupid boys or girls in love. You just follow what yr heart tell u to do.
After the rain comes fair weather and I would appreciate our sweet days.

Thks for yr wish, I feel much better now. Just take a deep breath, a good sleep n look forward, there''s a lot of thing waiting for me to do

My friend, a big fan of Kurt , says " i was me". and now i guess i understand what his feelings are when he say that.... well. to live is to fight ^^ . I should be happy coz i "truly deeply madly" fell into love rather than living with a cold heart day by day.
thanks 4 your wish ! the same to u ! now, i''m burning my spirit ^^

whenever i come here, i often show u my bad feelings. it doesnt mean that my life is full of sorrow or something like that. to be honest, i''m a lucky guy !
I''m going to take a free long great, maybe, unforgivable trip.it seéms that a big part of my craziest dream is coming true...i should be happy, rite ? it''s a good chance to change the way i used to live...
// this nick is clone

Feel a little bit lucky today. So happy and eager to do that. From now on, I''m taking that way, the way that I''ve been thinking and dreaming of it for a long long time.