Góc Riêng

I was a fish as I had to write these reflections, damn, they did not teach us how to reflection well. Just one unit and one assignment for reflecting with the warning: You have to reflect many times in the future. Damn, we had to fight against ''reflection hell.'' The one you read is one of the ''copy-paste'' or ''trying-to-finish'' reflection when the teacher asked us to hand in her 8 reflections to 8 articles. But thanks to these ****, I am not afraid of writing such long texts any more.
I have read some posts of yours. And I have to ask you a question that: You are a man or a girl (no one can touch Chaien!)? Because in some sayings, you used some words which men would like to use or I found down in your meaning. Hm, just think that you have two ***es, right? And, you have no man beside now? Or a girl-friend? You should pick an ecchi manga up, cuz this contains a lot of interesting things for you, I am serious.
Hey Chaien, could you tell me about your place now? I wanna go to Korea or Australia after finishing my ****ing damn studying. I need something new to refresh, hearing about others'' stories is one of things which I mean, hope you do not mind saying such things to me, ok? And do not pretend to be a girl here, I know you got a ball or your mind has some manly parts, not kidding. Choosing a man-symbol like chauphixanh''s genre is a good thing, I like it.

Ha ha, yes, have you heard of multi personality? It is so funny that you found some "masculine" phrases/ words in my writing. It makes me kind of happy. You know, all my life, I''ve striven for that sort of manliness He he. So you''re still trying to figure out my ***/ gender? He he, it is so amusing. I do have a bunch of girlfriends and boyfriends around me which make me feel overwhelmed sometimes. Never in my life have I known that many people of my age. I have got out of my own comfort zone somehow.
To reflect, I think the best way is to understand the text carefully, and don''t praise on it. Give your opinion, what you think about the topic, agree or disagree, how they approach it, raise some questions and answer it, give some other perspectives, etc.
My place? Well, it is pretty, I love the distinct seasons here and the many flowers blooming in the summer. I never got stressed until I came to my place, thus I learned to fight with it and sometimes it is tough but you know, I feel like I''m more independent and mature (being far away from home, you''ll learn to face up with different things and people and solve your own problems). I never learned that there are so many people and that they come from all paths of life, which is kind of exciting. I''ve done what I would otherwise never do, have chosen a career path which many people consider crazy/ risky. I think the most important thing about studying abroad, not to mention the academic knowledge in school, is the opportunity to grow, getting out of your comfort zone, figuring out your strengths/ weaknesses and maybe find yourself.
But seriously, I''m always busy, and this business has kicked the optimistic/ enthusiastic person out of me and giving me back a neutral/ objective person. I guess I''ll need to start making a list of "crazy things to do before I get boring". Some funny aspects is that I am constantly in a state of hunger for not having time to eat and the food is not exciting, feel lonely sometimes (that''s why I go up here because there are things that you can''t share in person, esp with someone not from the same culture). Ha ha...
So go and figure out yourself. If I had a chance to begin from the beginning, I would do the same thing, going here and facing all the challenges that I would never think of in my wildest dream (in the past).
Too long huh? Hope you won''t get bored reading this post. I don''t know, I am studying now and this class is the last thing in the world I would want to take but I have to.

You are studying to take a bachelor degree? I use the right word? Hm, why do you have to take a lot of classes at the same time? Hm, maybe I have to find the best way to study at school. I wanna do some crazy jobs but my family want me to go aboard to have a good degree and come back teaching at universities. It is not my aim. I hate studying.
Just do like me, play truant, another wrong word? I like being absent from classes and sleeping whole day. I do things at night, and realize that I have to go to college in the morning. All assignments I put them aside and try my best to kill all of them in the days I do not feel tired. And you see, my assignment is not good enough and I know that I have to do they 3 weeks before handing in.
I was a fish and my writing skills needed to improve and what I could do at that time is only doing them 3 4 times instead of one time only. Now, the 4th semester with some strict teachers, I am received some bad marks. Hic. It is time for me to refresh and try more than what I used to. Hope I have more ambition, energy, etc. and a bit lucky. Try, try, try, etc.

4th semester? You''re pretty young, aren''t you? Oh well, I am different from you. What I like the best is to study and I am aiming at becoming a professional student (sounds funny right, that''s what people call a nerd). Well, I don''t skip classes and because I enjoy studying, I always overload (and also, my friends call it "killing myself). I do believe that you should do what you are interested in, I find my enthusiasm and energy when I can do what I''m passionate about. Maybe you won''t get the most money or a stable life with your career choice, but I think money is not the ultimate goal of life and neither should life be a straight line, I prefer the sine graph or at least something erratic! I guess I should go find something to it before I lose too much weight and disappear!
Try harder, that''s all I can say

You just said that you have to attend the class, right? Hm, playing truant is a good thing, why do not you try it right now? Do not say that I am such a guy, going to classes is not a good way to show that you like studying.
Oh, stop here. If I continue this topic, I will think about playing truant in the next Monday. I have just been absent from 4 days, and my teacher did not say a word but I know that I will be kicked ass soon. What is going on in this semester?

Just finish eating and get back here with the great mission of telling you why you should not skip classes. Hix, you seriously makes me feel like a nerd, which I try to deny most of the time.
First, I "have to take" this class because it is require and I have been putting it off forever (because I normally only do what I want, dang!). However, what I do is to try to come up with good reasons that this class is important to me, what I can learn from it, blah blah, and it makes me feel better. And this class definitely gives me some background on a subject I basically know nothing about.
Second, I''m a perfectionist, I can''t stand a lower than 90 grade, basically, that''s why I don''s skip classes, because once you skip a class, the professor will take some points of for attendance.
Third, I think if the professor takes their precious time to go teach me something, I''d better show up and study st. Anyway, give and take and being sustainable. Just imagine, if you were a teacher and came to class and figured out half of your class were not there, what would you think?I would feel bad for myself ''cos I must have done st wrong.
Fourth, it''s against my principle. Very simple. I don''t try to get away with anything I''m supposed to do (according to my own rule of course).
Fifth, it is money, class= money if not me then someone else spends on and I am frugal
So stop skipping class if you can. I doubt it that you won''t learn a single thing in an about 2 hour class period.
Now, I will go study, preparing for my test, which will be epic.
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Some of my friends are good at studying in colleges. However, from my view, I see that they are not smart and they just try to learn things all the time and say stupid things to gain good marks from teachers. The way they study in college is likely what good students do in high schools, which makes me feel boring and wanna say a range of bad words.
My mum always gives me a lot of perfect examples of fools who are good at ''gaining'' best marks but I soon noticed that there are so many guys out side schools are so smart and precise in various ways. Some of them cannot go into high schools and colleges, which I call studying-for-degrees, they cannot get a higher education but they are still good.
I wrote 4 paragraphs but they are so complicated. Maybe I am tired. I have to go to sleep. Today I have had a feeling that I have some troubles in the way I think. It made me nervous. The bad marks 2 weeks ago also knock me out. I am losing my confidence. I need something refreshing my mind, really.

I don''t know if you are trying to imply that I''m stupid but just good at gaining good marks or not but reading your post, I would infer that. It doesn''t matter to me that much what people think of "people with good GPA" but I would think that there is some jealousy in there.
And anyway, I just don''t simply study day and night, I work as well. And because I have passions in my life and try to pursue those, I think my "studying" life is lovely, even though sometimes it does drive me crazy, always reading, learning or doing something makes me feel fulfilled. I know once I get out there, into the real world, I will no longer have a chance to sit in the sun thinking about my Philosophy class or simply playing with my friends, or doing some volunteer work. Thus, why think too much about why/ what and end up not doing anything and stressing yourself out?
However I would expect that (I don''t know how your school works) someone who studies at a higher educational institution must have a decent brain. I know quite few people who drop out because they can''t take it any longer (I mean the work load and level of difficulty). And after all, what''s the point of going to college but to study, to get some knowledge? If one thinks he/she is too good for school so jump out there, be another Bill Gates or st. like that.

Just having read your first paragraph. Do not think like this way. You know Vietnamese education system? And my college is a typical example for seeing these guys I mentioned there. I always remember that you are a student who is studying aboard. I mean that you have a chance to see many things different from what you have known in Vietnam. What we can learn from the books in school now are in front of your eyes. If I go aboard, I will check what I have read in books. I think you did do the same thing.
I am learning English but in this education system, people think that I will become a teacher even I still cannot choose which job in the future. And some teachers try to teach us how to teach students. They gave us some lectures about teaching and maybe I was impressed. Some of us try to think that one day we would be the good teachers. In fact, most of my friends realized that they feft very excited in the beginning but they lost them all when they were in the 3rd and now the 4th semester. What wrong happened to us?
For the ones I said in the previous post, they have a good GPA but they never care about what they are taught to do. They only care about the GPA and how can they get a better mark. Some teachers are the same like them, they all wanna spend time on doing what they have to do. No care for people who do not understand the lecture, no care about people who have no confidence in their ability and are facing with things when they have just transferred to the other city. They just care themselves only.
For these guys, they choose the best team-mates to make the best assignments. They say things which all of us can see on the books to answer the teachers'' questions. And you know, for the other girls in this class, they do want or cannot think about the answers. They do not want to discuss, they do not want to share, they do not want to learn. So, even they gain a good GPA like you say, they are still fools who, truly, as I always say: a normal stupid dumb-ass. Studying and gaining a high GPA are the two different aims.
We are taught to become teachers. We have to go outside schools and do what we are asked to do. But they care about the good marks only. And for others, they care about other things. If they do not wanna teach anyone, find some hobbies and do their best. No, they never wanna do it. They have no dreams, nothing to get in life. They just choose this school to spend time only. They should do something interesting instead of wasting time like this. They are still young and energetic.
I just introduced a program called Learning Material Sharing. My teach has supported me by giving me permission to post documents I collected from the beginning and from my friends to share with my inferiors. I did it because I know that the fish always lacks of basic knowledge like what you can see from my assignments when I was in the 2nd semester. And I know everyone in my school must learn a thing that sharing is the best way to learn things. I cannot see this from my friends.
They like taking pictures. They like showing how talent they are. They like living in a group and only caring about themselves. From my view, I like some old teachers of mine, when I was in high school, when I was in the first two years in Military Technology Academy, they are good teachers, good seniors, who give me a lot of lessons and advices about life and study. For some teachers, I cannot see they say things like this, never. And in my own opinion, the ones who can teach others learn and love things are one of the best.
I had waited a long time for a day my friends state their opinions but they are so weak, they are afraid of speaking out what they are thinking. All what I can hear are, damn it, from the fools who wanna say because they want marks. A lot of my friends keep silent in classes because they are inactive, and they have no desire to learn. It is the college teaching people to become teachers and how can they teach others when they cannot overcome the weak man in themselves. Some can do this but there are few people like them here.
They are losing their inspiration. And so am I. You will understand what I mentioned above if you know that discussion and sharing are what we are doing in our classes. But, for this 4th semester, there are familiar faces who know each other much and like keeping silent. So boring. So tired. I had to find helps from friends in other classes. What the heck! Damn. GPA is things which my teachers want us to achieve? How about what you introduced to me in the first semester?

Sorry then I might have misunderstood what you said. I don''t think you can do anything about it because basically that is how the educational system at home works. I am not in your situation and it is tough for me to put myself in your shoe, trying to figure out what''s going on because I have no experience with your school (I don''t even know what it is). So well, if you need to discuss st, just post it up here and I will reply back when I have time. Maybe, that''s all I can do for now.
By the way, I still hold my opinion that the most important thing to do in college is to study. So if you are not studying for good grades, just the fact that you are studying will bring good grades to you (different from studying for a grade). I hope you get what I mean. And stop staying up too late.
Don''t lose your confidence. At least you know what''s going on, what''s right and what''s wrong, so it is better than being unaware, isn''t it? Set your own goals, work toward them. I think the most dangerous thing ever is to get lost in the midst of your life... especially when you are so so young.
Well, a song for you, don''t even know if you will try listening but I try posting it here, I listen to it when I can''t take it no more:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-adxsRjvai8
and
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R08q2wzGpzk
Good luck!
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