Góc Riêng

Ngủ thì không kịp bài. Tại ngày ngủ nhiều rồi. Haiz. Mình sắp giống tên Chaien, nhưng mình ko chăm và ko muốn chăm như hắn.

Đang ngồi học tự nhiên thấy mũi hấp háy, mắt nhấp nháy, biết ngay là có kẻ nói xấu mình. Đúng là, ừ, tui là Chaien đấy, còn cậu là đồ cận thị Nobita, sẽ bị tôi đá văng kính có ngày, nhé.
P.S.
1.Không biết bao nhiêu GPA là tốt nhưng phụ thuộc nhiều yếu tố, nhưng thường thì có lẽ họ expect ít nhất là 3.0 nên của cậu hình như hơi không cao lắm.
2. Nè, có muốn chăm chỉ thông minh và chăm như Đen ta đây (Đêkhi and Chaien) này cũng không dễ đâu nhé!

Đâu phải ai cũng là người cổ, old lady và đậm nét Chaien được, . Ngủ cái, *lầm bầm gì đó* cho tên Chaien hắt xì thêm.

Where the hell are those ****ers? They are pissing me off. These doggy idiots, if you can do it, let do it. I wanna see what you can do. To you, you little ****.
In the first year of mine in college, I felt terrible and stressful when fighting against someone. Maybe I was a bad guy, short-temper? Yeah, I had to think about that much.
But now, with all what happened to me, there is no doubt that I won''t feel like that anymore. For the **** trying to make fun of me, I will show no mercy to you, remember.
I am what I am, you guys must know it.

You curse way too much! Don''t know how many times I have told you this but really, there are cleaner and nicer ways to work things out. If you don''t like someone that much, talk to them in their face or ignore them and focus on your own things. If you don''t like something, change it. If you can''t change it, then it''s your problem, change your attitude. I think life itself would be so much better if we could judge ourselves just as much as we do others. Wouldn''t it be better?
Awh, I worked 10 hours today, had fun but totally exhausted. How do they say it in French? Je n''en peux plus. Hope you will feel better and enjoy the rest of your weekend. I''ll go take a nap now.

Oh, I just know that you were voted 1*. Maybe someone was angry with you and did vote against you. Hm, I have a problem but it is not easy to solve, you know. Yesterday, this ****er said **** to me while we were discussing about an outline of the presentation we have to do two weeks later. In the end, when we just finished discussing about part 1 - introduction, then we were wondering how we could show our opinion, she just added something like I should shut my mouth up and let people do what they want, lol. The ****er, I cannot help shouting **** back and she left without saying bye bye.
Three members left, I am sure that they know why she said **** to me. But they are girls, if they are my close friends, they will help me to fight back but my close ones are not in this class. Like one of idiots did say, my class were not united and now I am sure those saying that did much to make my class turn into this. The ones thought that we cannot become more close would be the ones will not do anything to make people connect. They like sitting in groups of three or four and that is all what they know, the self-fish dumb-ass. Most of my class-mates are the same as this idiot I mentioned above, the one who I did ignore her yahoo nick even we are still class-mates.
The gal talked to me last night got along with me well in the two first semester but things changed when we were in the 3rd one and now the 4th semester. Because I just came back to myself, and said everything what I wanna share. I am really excited when saying as much as I can. Why do I hide my thoughts in classes, in discussing, in show ideas, etc. and why do I have to shut my mouth up like them? The way people study in Vietnam is keeping silent while they need to discuss and share things. Thus, they can keep peace with others. No discuss, no argue, no wars and it sounds good. For me, they are killing time.
Maybe I had a war, really. At the week we did presentation about one trend in pedagogy subject, my leader in group of six just turned down all ideas of mine. She said to me: ''You do not have to present tomorrow, we all do that for you.'' Damn it, this topic is difficult for anyone, and I had to ask for helps from my seniors. They gave me an outline and it solved most of the problems I encountered. But my leader and two other members thought that I disregarded them. Hm, my outline was not good? Why did they learn something while comparing the one I just received?
Someone gives you a topic, and then you should understand what the topic is and how you can show what you think about it. Outlines help us know more about the topic and the things we would show. Making outlines are the priority of mine. I wanna say that the outline of them had a problem, they have to remove one part because it is irrelevant. Anyway, the order of the parts are confused. Hm, at first, they just copied from some seniors in K41 or K40. And this one from them are very bad. No order, no outline, they only made some slides to read in front of their classes. I saw no points, no opinions in this one. I did contribute my idea and the leader felt a bit embarrassing, huh? Did she? Copy and paste, it sounds crazy. This subject in Vietnamese, not in other languages?
Two times I did contribute my ideas but as I just said, the best thing people do is keep silent and let only one man give her outline. Why did I have to keep silent. In the first presentation, she asked me find some information and then removed them all and think that this part is not suitable. But she wrote in the report that I did not do anything, I just kept playing around. I had to e*** the words in this report to make it better and one member e***ed in my task''s comment that: Oh, this bastard did e*** the last final so he contributed something, though. **** you two, you know. Your doing is ****. You find information by Google and copy paragraphs you like but when you add them into one, you never e*** and really do not understand what you are doing. Read the **** you made one more time and see how bad it is. It is a work of copying and paste. It is not in English, it is in Vietnamese, so easy to know you are bad at writing in Vietnamese.
Oh my, perhaps it is the reason why in the 2nd presentation when the leader turned down all my comments, I did another one and in the day we presented I came in front of 4 classes and showed what I did. It is so exciting when I can show what I know and think about this topic. The teacher liked it, other friends supported me. They were surprised that one member from this time had different ideas with his team. Yeah, I did it. I chose my own outline and made a report about that. Hm, after that, the four members hated me, lol, included this gal said **** to me. She meant in her saying that I had to keep silent when people saying.

I wrote too long. Form that day, I have less friends in classes and I always know that. Luckily, other friends are still good partners of mine. Think about the days they could leave me? I do not know.

I know that not everybody is perfect but have you ever wondered why they treated you that way? There are smart people out there who are also popular among their friends because they know how to contribute their ideas in a way that doesn''t hurt others'' feelings or offend anybody else. I think your friends would appreciate it if you told them something like ''I''ve got some ideas, I don''t know if you guys would like it or not but why don''t we give it a try?'' and emphasize on the fact that you are working for the whole group and that they should not take it personally.
I have encountered this problem very many times before but I could navigate my friends in the direction I want, not as a leader but simply some humble one who is lucky enough to happen to have some good ideas. I''ve learned that most people never accept the fact that there is someone better than them or simply has got some better ideas than them and that both of them are in the same class or on the same level. Seriously, I don''t think that many of my classmates are that important to keep as friends but they are good to be acquaintances and I never think it is comfortable for me to be in a class where half don''''t like me. I don''t strive for popularity but I just don''t want to be the target of hatred by any means. I think just keep it in mind. I''''m afraid that you have the feeling of being superior to others, which is so dangerous. Really, if they are not as good as you at something, they may be better at others, at least at keeping peace. You can argue but not in an aggressive way.
Yesterday, we had a big event to choose new people into our service program and half of them got ''Big No'' because of this aggressive and I-am-better-than-you-all or I-am-too-good-to-be-here. Just keep it in mind.
P.S. He he, I''m kind of happy that I got a 1-star vote from someone. It shows that people do care about what I say even though I never think that I''''ve produced any comment that can be categorized as rude'' or ''impolite.'' Thus, whoever gave me 1 star vote, I feel sorry for them because they can''t accept different viewpoints or different people. (sounds like AQ attitude, doesn''t it?) He he
Anyway, have a great week. I can tell that you are stressing yourself out. Those girls should not be the reasons for all of this, especially when you think they are not worthy of your attention. Why do you then let them degrade your soul by hating them? Make them respect you and your ''smartness.'' I''m being sincere, not being sarcastic at all.
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Được perfectsting sửa chữa / chuyển vào 19:12 ngày 18/04/2010

I just voted you 1* too so you will be my No.1 Chaien.
Yeah. You got the point. We disagreed in many things but we did remember them all. It is the best reason for all of us. For others, they are just normal friends and I do not care much about them. Some of them are so crazy to me. They like talking with their best friends only. There are 3 groups like that in my class. They are not far much from others but they act like they only live in this group.
It sucks because sometimes we have to freely choose groups. Yeah, things changed when we chose some groups, from the 1st semester. I and some members cannot find any group. With the total number, there are only 4 to 5 groups only but as always, 4 groups are created immediately. Not many choices for others.
For the three last semester, most of the time they worked with their best friends. And when we worked in the first time, of course the disagreements appeared. I hate them by that reason so when things were get out of control, I acted in the wrong ways. Damn it, it is time I feel stress and this corner is a place for me to come back to normal me. Hm, the gap was getting wider by this way.
I think some of my class-mates are very good at gaining good marks or getting well lectures. But they never wanna to connect with others. They like doing it themselves. They come to classes, chat chit with best friends and quit. They are strangers, not my friends, we did not talk much. In some ways, they make friends when taking pics, traveling but to me, these activities are not interesting and I missed chance to make peace and get close to them.
I get along well with some gals but for the whole class, 27, you see that there are at least 10 people I do not care much. I am trying to show friends signs because I do not like sitting alone. I talked to the whole class and think about my friends'' making friends way, it is so crazy that some of them never talk to each other. They are Vietnamese and it is so strange to me but now I am acquainted with this truth. This class taught me more about life than any class I attended before.
Well. Your saying, it is so good to figure out the problems. But for all reasons above, I am wondering why do I have to better the status of relationships, truly. Thanks for chatting with me here, Chaien. Not bad even we are guys, I wish you are a really girl.

No. 1 Chaien sounds like a good nickname ha ha. Now I feel the need to get that title/ status or whatever people call it. That would be cool wouldn''t it? And I will throw a party when I''ve got 100 people voting 1 for me. Oh, when will that glorious day come...
You know what? I think you''ve got no big problem at all. I think you just don''t have much common sense (sorry for saying so but I see myself in you). I''ve learned so much and the most important things is that every body is different, and you''ll never get to know them and find good things in them unless you make some efforts. I used to jump to a conclusion after talking with someone once or twice or simply judging their appearance or one or two of their actions and it turned out to be totally wrong. So many people I secretly hated turned out to be great and now my very good friends (and they like me, lol!) Thus, I think you should not show your emotions so clearly or hastily judge someone before you know them better. Anyway, don''t ever think that you are always right. Because you live in the darkness of your big self, sometimes you can''t see the sign. Even though I''m pig headed sometimes, I still believe that all troubles come from both sides/ both extremes of the spectrum. Insulting or offensive acts or just some disagreement, all have some reasons, whether out of jealousy or whatever it is. Show them that you are just one of them (I don''t mean literally), that you have no intentions of being different.
P.S. Of course you may think that it is of no importance that you have to maintain good relationships with your classmates, but after all, isn''t life all about how to live, and live as well as your potential permit you? And can you really live a good life if you can''t do the simple but not easy task of getting along with others around you?
Oh, I don''t know what''s happening to either the internet or my laptop or the server but it keeps reporting error. I''m going to cook now, hungry as always.
He he,
No. 1. Chaien (I like this one . Thanks!)
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