I found u _ my private space

Grandfather,let''''''''s bless me . I feel that I''''''''m running out of energy . It''''''''s so difficult 2 explain the reason why whenever I have 2 cope up with challenges I often think of u. Like today, when I was deeply hopeless in finding my thesis document, I sat in silence and gazed at ur pic which reminded me of the times when u helped me solve all the problems. Naturally I remembered ur precious poem which u composed 4 me on the occasion of Teachers''''''''Day celebration . It''''''''s not so excellent but it was full of grandfather''''''''s love . Although u''''''''r no longer by my side, let me keep the thought that u''''''''r still following my step by step... I missed u so much, do u know, can u feel??? Sending a message of love 2 u....
Được hotwinter sửa chữa / chuyển vào 23:08 ngày 07/09/2007

Just wanna say I treasure ur care n concern 4 me brother . It''s u who''s extremely patient in encouraging ur silly sis . Wish u were here to wend my way through the problems

This morning when I went to REINSURRANCE company to seek 4 documents, I was totally disappointed. The manager of Marine Department told me that even those who specialized in Insurrance was afraid of choosing my topic, particularlly, when researching on Vietnamese market in which this kind was entirely new. Really??? I dont know that until she said hehe. After being asked some questions that I had never thought about before, I realized all I read was so theoric. They may suit foreign markets where P&I insurance is very popular but they r so different from Vietnam even when Vietnam joined WTO. Unpredictably, some terms she mentioned I had never heard before, hehe. She said it was reasonable because it took a long time to be sophisticated in this field. Oh God, time elapses so fast n I dont have enough time . The more I damned the rain this early morning, the more I wish there would be a downpour to sooth all my stress at the time when I came home. That''s the reason why I dont want 2 argue with u. If I make u unpleasant, sorrie.

There''s only 9 days left 2 prepare 4 the IELTS exam taken on Sep 20th. Sadly, occupying in my thesis makes me neglect my English 4 such a long time, which levels my E down instead of filling existent deficiencies . The most skill I worry about is the READING test. Managing time logically is one of my problems, probably due to my slow speed n my poor vocabulary. Acquisition of knowledge is easier with hard practice but I do not carry out my teacher''s advice well. Many people say that dont worry about strange words, I know, it''s not necessary to understand all new words; however, owning an enormous vocabulary will make u grasp the paragraph easier. Especially, multiple choice questions always make me hesitant, which wastes a lot of time . My teacher told me that sometimes u should skim n catch the main ideas then guess. huhu teacher, I''m absolutely bad at guessing, hichic, maybe because I''m truly silly ( at first it''s my friends''jokes, but now I feel this fact''s coming true :-|). Initially I just want band 6.5 in order 2 meet the MA''s demand, but now I''m greedy for band 7 (no icon expressing my immense desire). I have never dared think wat will happen if I get band 6.5 or even band 6 :-|, perhaps I will commit suicide or hide myself in an isolated shelter,hehe,so ashamed. How guilty I am if I throw millions of VND through the window ( Mrs Lee said that we''s better avoid translating idioms from Vietnamese into English, but in this case I actually dont know this idiom in English . Longman idiom dictionary seems to be useless to me teacher :-|). My Speaking skill is commented to be my strength, not sure. Maybe I''m confident of my pronunciation, fluency; I can talk much in pretty good acent n intonation but I think I still lack of academic vocabulary, which is an indispensable point to get a high score. Regarding my writing skill, uhm, I have 2 admit that my writing is very boring, even in Vietnamese :-|. Although in the final test I get band A, it''s not stable. My weakness is carelessness which makes me often regret after each test. I remember that I used to loose 4 points as a result of tranferring wrong from the paper test into the answer sheet :-|. Disappointedly, I cant count how many wrong (fool) spellings I have made in my writings. Mr Mark once said to me when I wrote the word OVERAL instead of OVERALL: "HA, u r so intelligent ( ohhhhhh why do u know, it''s my name), u have just invented a new word, congratulations". :-|. So shrewish u r Mark ( but I still luv u hi''hi''). This is a symbolic example proving my carelessness . I hope that I wont make silly mistakes in my real IELTS exam n hope band 7 will be at hand. Let''s try 2 escape from a vicious cycle n appoach a brilliant future ^^.
Được hotwinter sửa chữa / chuyển vào 14:46 ngày 11/09/2007

Được hotwinter sửa chữa / chuyển vào 14:25 ngày 11/09/2007

Dear my little sis!
Do u know how obsessed I was when my tragedy came? I used to feel my life came crashing around me. I just wanna go to another place to wipe out all the memories. I even lost my will in battling my illness. I was always obsessed about my sad love story. There''r times when I thought it would be a chance 4 me to erase all the pain n sorrow if I could die. Until when I saw my mother''s tears, when I felt our family''s encouragement, I had never been so determined to overcome. Do u remember wat u had ever said to me? "Let''s cry hysterically but dont let urself down". Dont think that u cant go through, I know u''r stronger than me sis . I know now u feel ur dream had shattered but u can build it up again. Dont be afraid that u will never meet someone who can make ur heart vibrate again. Let''s be willing to give anything a try as it''s not the most horrific thing, it''s just a little difficulty u cant avoid in ur life. But it will give u more experiences so that u will know how to make the most of the time u''ve got left. I wish u could be more brave n soon be back 2 ur beautiful life. I love u so much. Do u know yesterday when u cried non-stop, my heart was cut into pieces...

Có những lúc nước mắt chảy mà chẳng hiểu tại sao. Có những lúc thấy tim tan ra mới biết mình còn cảm giác...

wat has 2 come will come, my real test hichic. In order to make me feel more confident, I was drowned in studying English 8 hours per day in ACET library. So crazy, but the more I''''''''ve learnt, the more anxious I feel.n now when I want to write more n more to release all my stress, to warm up my English 4 2morrow exam, I seems to get stuck. Bull****! I cant recall so many words I''''''''ve learnt. Damn simple words, where r u academic words , I hope u will come back 2morrow in my writing test . I know in this exam, there will be no winner or looser, just only myself, n I also know if I fail I can do it again, but I dont know why I myself make me stressed n loose calm. My brother used 2 say that he didnt understand why I had 2 carry out so many things at the same time, which can lead me to be overloaded n break everything. Maybe I''''''''m an ambitious person brother, if I wanna do st, I have to do immediately. I know I''''''''m wrong .watever happens, this will be a lesson 4 me about how 2 plan n how 2 accomplish my target in effective ways :-|.
Được hotwinter sửa chữa / chuyển vào 22:52 ngày 19/09/2007

I remember once I was asked a question " how important do u think it is for a person 2 spend some time alone". n 2day I realised it''s really essential. There r moments a message or a call brings happiness n inspiration to u but sometimes it makes u really hurt... Staying in the dark, trapping myself in my room which was surrounded only by the sound of music somehow made me feel better. I''m OK. Plzzz let me alone, at least 1 day so that I can get well-balanced again...

Đại ca, TN xin lỗi vì ko nge điện của ĐC hôm wa, mẹ em bảo sao mày may mắn thế, đến anh ruột cũng chả quan tâm thế đâu ^^. Anh yên tâm em sẽ không buồn rầu hay khóc lóc nếu mà điều gì tồi tệ nhất xảy ra ( I dont cry 4 pain, I just cry 4 love ^^). Em còn làm mất cái chứng minh thư rồi cơ :-|, chả hiểu sao lúc đấy đầu óc như ở trên mây ý. (h mới biết thuốc ngủ cực kì có hại). Ước gì anh ko tập thể hình đều đặn, em thấy tình hình này em sẽ rất dễ bị ăn tát và bị xử lí như đã giao ước :-|, mà anh thì càng ngày béo và to khoẻ . Nge kiểu hỏi thăm động viên của mọi người chán lém anh ah, bạo lực và mắng mỏ như anh em thấy dễ chịu hơn. Với cả họ đâu fải người thân, gọi là hỏi thăm xã giao thoai. Hôm wa con bạn em ( ko thân) nó bảo nó lo wá vì em mất CMT thì sao thi nói được, nó lo cho em đến ko ăn được (có thể nó làm bài ko tốt) mà em vẫn ăn hết xừ nó cả bát bún . Biết hết nhưng thôi kệ, đấy gọi là xã hội, muôn mặt muôn tính cách, khéo léo có cục cằn có, em anh luôn fân biệt được thế nào là thật lòng và thế nào là giả tạo . Nhưng cũng chả ảnh hưởng gì, đứa nào thích nịnh thì đứa đấy sướng, đứa nào ko thích nịnh như em anh thì thấy bình thường ( có khi tầm thường). Suy từ mình ra thôi, thân mình còn lo chả xong đi đau đớn cho người khác làm cái quái gì. Wí thì rất rất nhiều, nhưng đau khi người khác đau thì hơi hiếm hehe, em đếm trên đầu ngón tay được những người em wan tâm thật sự, còn thiên hạ thế nào, dont care :-|, sống tàn nhẫn ko? Máu lạnh mà . Chắc ra đời em khó sống lắm anh ah, em ko biết nịnh, em ko khéo :-|, và em ko thích nịnh, em ko thích người khéo. Chắc em anh chỉ có mỗi ưu điểm là chẳng bao giờ muốn hại ai, đụt mà , một con người chân chính ^^, chứ còn thì ...Đại ca về nhanh đi, cứ ngồi lải nhải 1 mình chán lắm roài ý