So sad, I could not find the way to get out of such this complicating circle. I chase people and people chase me... I get bored, I could not give it up. Teach me how to open my heart, why it need to be so hịgh ? how can I get over my silly thought.... Life is beautiful, people all are interesting enough... I wanna have too many to handle...finally, at the mean time, I have nothing but myself, I know it is not the right time to play around, I wanna settle down. Then where all that thought gone when I meet people, I admire them, I lịke some of them. The worse thing is I could not sort out who is my right ... I am afraid of being lonely, is that the reason why I become such this bad. All are just my good friends, I dont believe any one fall in love with me. People hate that, people feel jealous and I get myself stuck in a damm wholy crap. I enjoy it, but it is not what I expect. I wanna have a very first lesson about love and friendship.
Well, everyone is afraid of being lonely. It's the most awesome feeling in the world. I can't imagine how I could live without all of my friends. You know, if you open your heart then you'll never be alone anymore. You asked to teach you how to open your heart? You should have known it. Just be honest to your friends, tell them what you think and appreaciate what they do for you. To live on this Earth, you must have faith. You have to trust your friend or you'll never have them. Let time show you the answer. Love will come to everyone who deserves it, you know. Just relax and have fun. I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves took it away. I wrote your name in the sky, but the wind blew it away. So I write your name in my heart, where no one can take it away and it'll be forever...
What friends are for ? I wish I could have some one to listen to me, to be with me at this moment coz I feel so lonely. I could not call her, coz i decided rather not to treat her as my close friend. I would rather be alone than have a friend who has hurt me that much. But now, I could not stand anymore. What type of people am I ? I do not want any one involve my life too much, but how much I wish I could have a friend who would be with me when ever I need. I have friends, I know they are so good, but now, I am not confident enough to call them, to tell them I am in trouble. I dont know what will be their behave if they receive my call, listen and know my struggle. I know myself, I know some people keep shouting at my back that I am stupid, too kind means stupid, one told me that. I hate feeling like this, stuck, and could not find another way of life... which need not to be too kind to people.
