SEC diary.

Determination
IF you can''t get through the mountain, try going around it
If you can''t go around it, try going over it
If you can''t go over it, ask yourself if getting over to the other side is all that important
If it is
..........set your heart out to dig a tunnel through it.
Expectant of the changes in me This time round, hopefully, I won''t leave the tunnel unfinished in my undertakings. Stemming from myself. The means and the end. Why should I be that bothered?

Just wanna refresh! Someone said to me that the life is the chart, sometimes will rise, and sometimes need quiet... I think that I had a time working busy with a lot of plans and objects. Just need time to sit back.. Seeing the past is not my habit, but it''s time to see the past to think tomorrow...
1 years and more in career ... uhm. Seeing the mirror and wonder it is me , It is what i dreamed when I was young? Quotes from zerocool_destiny " To live is to accept all the things that life gives out to you"
Uhm, I prove of my CV... It is improving day after day. Maybe I add on it a lot of works and activities, althought it is not good for my ideal job..
Thanks my tutor. I am ready to study English by myself now. Dont worry about me ! I hate someone call me "boy", and I try to pass it in the shortest time.

A Tet holiday is coming and it is time to look back the passing year and set plan for the coming year of dog.
My last year is a quiet year with keeping and enjoying all the things I have. A still of year made me feel peaceful.
I am opening a new year with some new interesting plans. This new year must be different. It might not be peaceful anymore, it might be a new development with some changes in my life. Naturally, I have to put more effort and my brain has to work hard.
My student, I could see you have tried your best to make progress in your English and your career. Keep going on! You are on the way *****ccess. If I can be of any assistance, feel free to let me know as I am your tutor.

End of a working day. I will go to library to borrow a bundle of books which help me forget the Chinese New Year is coming and passing. Maybe I will do reading for this whole holiday. Take a bus back to my empty flat, completely alone. So quiet, my computer was broken down. Yeah, that was what I felt yesterday. And I will spend this whole holiday in such manner.
I want to think about my past with full of beautiful memories. The present and future are betrayers but the past is not. Going back to memory. Yet nothing much I could remember. It becomes smaller and smaller, further and further. And someday I perhaps forget even your face. But it is enough. Why I should ask for more.

Yeah, today is the last working day of this year. This new year will have no music because my computer was brokend down (it sucks). I remember last year when I woke up on the first day of the new year, I felt so empty. The rain was outside. Lying my bed, I suddenly read:
Nguyệt ảnh vô tình
Trần gian đa truân
Getting up, turn on my computer to listen to Violin concerto by J.S. Bach (BWV 1042, not sure): tình tinh, tình tinh...After the music ended the mood went away. Li bai wrote a poem with the same situation. That was a spring day, he drank (as usual) and complained:
Xử thế nhược đại mộng
Hồ vi lao kỳ sinh
(life is just a great dream
why you bother so much)
Yet, at the end of the poem he wrote
Hạo ca đãi minh nguyệt
Khúc tận dĩ vong tình
( Loudly I sing to greet the bright moon
When the song ends, my mood is gone away)
No more music for this year. I will unable to listen to my favourist pieces as I did some previous years: Orchestral suite no. 2, violin and harpsichord concertos, the art of fugue by J.S. Bach, symphony no. 3-5-9 , piano concerto no.5 by Beethoven, symphony 1,4 by Brahms, and symphony Unfinished, lieder-song cycles The winter journey, Swan songs by Schubert.

Come and share ur joyous moment during Tet Holiday.
Last night I drank until 6am, then watched a movie Tiêu Thập Nhất Lang whole day. Not so bad Tet hah. The bad news is now no more wine of mine and friends''. I am searching, but .... Tthe fact ''''''''No more wine'''''''' reminds me this poem by Vũ Hoàng Chương:
Em ơi lửa tắt bình khô rượu
Đời vắng em rồi vui với ai.
Yeah. Đời vắng em rồi vui với ai.
Được tao_lao sửa chữa / chuyển vào 19:57 ngày 29/01/2006

I saw, in a fleeting moment, my tulip field. Bursting with life in the wild. Yet innocent in white.
Tulip of the valley...the return of happiness ^ - ^
Ready for a fresh new start!

Hi kid Sweet,
My comp was broken down (again).I think I shouldn''''t fix it because most of the components of my comp are now out of stock. Sooner and later it will be out of order again. Tony advised me leave it there (mean throwing away..huhu), he will re-assemble his old one and lend it to me (dun know when).
Just refresh and start. We may go in paralell ways but I am happy to have you as a great friend .
We may go in paralell ways
Why expect to meet in some days
We hide our feelings not to show
Why still feel the distance so close
I couldn''t find suitable words to make the lines rhythm.Dun be angry kid. Thanks for your friendship (maybe I should write: In the name of friendship, I think of you Sweet )
Được tao_lao sửa chữa / chuyển vào 11:23 ngày 01/02/2006

Dear Oldster
From me...to you
K. BADJADJO PRADIP (Ấn Độ)
Quán hàng phù thủy
Một phù thuỷ
Mở quán hàng nho nhỏ:
?oMời vào đây
Ai muốn mua gì cũng có!"
Tôi là khách đầu tiên
Từ bên trong
Phù thuỷ ló ra nhìn:
?oAnh muốn gì??
?oTôi muốn mua tình yêu,
Mua hạnh phúc, sự bình yên, tình bạn..."
?oHàng chúng tôi chỉ bán cây non
Còn quả chín, anh phải trồng, không bán!"
Thái Bá Tân dịch
Buy or not - It''s your choice

hì hì...I saw you posting this poem somewhere. It ''s nice. By the way, I ''m too old to be patient. Just want to buy, dun want to grow