hi my friend, once again i come here to share my feeling with you. I feel so lonely and sad. I feel like I just wanna tear myself off to many pieces. Can''t stand this anymore, but I can''t think of anything that can make me feel better. I don''t know who would be the one get me out of this situation. I just talked to Mo and he told me about the Vietnamese girl that he met in a club the other day and it happened to be Khanh''s friend. I don''t know how I''m feeling right now. I''m happy cuz he chose another vietnamese girl to go with. But I feel like i''m losing something. He''s someone that I never had. I talked to him and kinda lied to him about me knowing the girl. But I don''t blame on myself. Human don''t need to be perfect. The only perfect person is God. So, it''s ok. I guess I could say I did that because I was jealous. I know that I''m confessing my weakness to you but I''m not a tough girl, I get weak sometimes too, so I guess this is ok because at least I can be happy knowing that I still have feelings of something. I told him to be nice to the girl and asked him if he liked me before. He didn''t want to say it but I told him I thought so. He asked me "so..." to make me feel bad and embarrass about what I just said. But I think it''s ok for me by now. I just figured out that I live by wisdom during the day and by feelings at nights. I don''t want to make myself look good in front of people all the time cuz I''m not perfect and that is normal. I guess I somehow changed the way I am. I care least about the way think of me now than I did before and that makes me feel more confident and I''m happy about it. But deep inside my heart, I feel stunt. I don''t know. Well, maybe i know, it''s that I feel like no one understand me, feel like I''m the only person in this life. Try to fight everyday *****rvive, I have no special one to think about, to miss, to care and to be care. The only person that I ever have feeling for is now gone with another girl. He wanted to see my webcam, and I showed him, he said I look so different, he guesses I must have a boyfriend already. I said it doesn''t matter. Do I look like I have a boyfriend? That''s so ridiculous. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Just wanna yell out so loud to let it go but I can''t. I wish I''m in Danang so that I could go to the beach and scream like I used to do back then. At the end of the conversation, he told me that he misses me and I told him "as a friend i miss you too". I meant everything I said and I''m glad I did. I need to make a note to myself here that tomorrow when I get up and if I happen to think about what happened tonight, please don''t scold on yourself, just free it and feel good about it. It''s ok to miss someone than living like an unfeeling creature. You''ll be okay, no one blame on you and you shouldn''t blame on yourself neither, ok girlie girl. The one that at a time I thought I liked is now telling me that he misses me but I know this won''t be long cuz deep in his heart and his memories, he misses someone else, I''m just someone that fill his mind right now, temporarily. God, how come it''s so hard to love someone and have that person love you back. I can be happy with anyone as long as that person love me and care for me uncon***ionally. I don''t need to have many guys miss me, I only need one but you don''t even give me that only person. Even right at this moment, I don''t even have anyone though just a friend to share my feeling with. And I have to type them all here and later on come back and read it myself. What is it about? Testing me, trying me, see how strong I am. Then let me tell you that I''m not strong, not tough at all. I need someone who really cares about me and I care about him. Why does it so hard? My best friend told me when it comes, it''ll come. But when is it then? Ok, I think I said enough and I won''t ask you question no more for today. I feel better now. Thanks 4 listening to me. The only way I can express my feeling is here. Hope this site won''t never close. Otherwise, I''ll be so dead. Nite nite Mo, my first love; wish you happiness and success. I wonder if I ever love anyone like I did love you. And I wish happiness to myself too
Hello hello, hehhehe.... Mình vừa vào đây đọc lại bài viết của mình khoảng 8 tháng trước, bi giờ mình đã có câu trả lời cho chính mình. Mình hoàn toàn có thể yêu một người khác một cách thật lòng và say đắm. Mình đang thật sự rất hạnh phúc và vui. Người yêu của mình, người yêu theo nghĩa thực sự của một người care about me and love me so much, someone that I love, care about and thinking about him almost all the time. He''s a wonderful guy, I love everything about him and he does too....it''s hard to find someone like that but believe me,,,it''s not impossible. Chúc các bạn hạnh phúc và tìm được người mà bạn thực sự yêu thương.
