Viết cho người em chưa từng hẹn hò

There is one kind of flies, which I call crazy flies. They fly noisily buzzing around people, and perch here and there on their body, leaving unpleasant feeling at the area. These flies always make people unable to concentrate on what they are doing, and very uncomfortable.

I suddenly realize that my above composition is like my implication for someone. In fact it is not. I really mention one kind of insects. Please be understanding

I have to turn the water pump on. Will come back later.

Sad story for the love between Mr T and me. It is thoroughly sad even though there was a happy period of around three years. Then I came back with another boyfriend and from time to time I saddened him with my writing about him. Until now my ex-boyfriend is a question. I always wonder why he did not love me? Even now there have been signals which shows me that he needs me, I still do not believe it. And the truth is, he has had some beyond-the-boundary relationship which proves that he has no sentiment for me. Yet Mr T loves me truly (madly deeply) (joke ) and has suffered from our love. Why have I been so bad to Mr T for a long time? The reason has been explained in the previous post but I still feel guilty.

Has anyone mistaken my above composition as a cold splash to Mr T? In fact it is not. If you read it carefully, you will see that the sad story is just the past. Now I am in love and waiting for Mr T. I hope that every one will live a happy life and have a peaceful end. Every sorrow is unpleasant so people should take every next step in their life carefully. People should live kind-heartedly and pray for good things to happen more often and bad things not to touch their life. But how many people agree to live their life peacefully with no hatred no anger and no desire? For people often do bad things to fulfill their ambition, they have got to receive bad things in return in their life ahead. If God forgives them, will they promise not to do bad things again?

My dad wants to use his personal computer. I will come back later.

This is the writing I made last night, too busy to wait for the forum to reply so I went to bed without sending it appropriately:

I feel so pleased reading my English compositions . Mr T, please be understanding, I did not mean to recall things about my ex-boyfriend. I just wanted to express some of my queries related to him and the old relationship, because I have no clues to what has happened between us.

Regarding our relationship, I can make sure now that I have done some head-shakings when you mentioned proceeding to closer one and now I feel regret. Even though I have refused you, I am sure not to mean it. I just have the habit of refusing things because I am afraid of minor bad things attached around. I refuse any suggestion before realizing what it is.

You said you meant to acquire happiness in deciding to forgive me, or rather, you have been angry but it does not mean you would not forgive me. Am I right? I was so bad. Again, I am sorry

Do you feel better now? Have you overcome your illness? Do you have to take medicine? Eat vitaminic food and take vitamin C (as in food or medicine), you will be more healthy. I want to drop in on you but I am not courageous. There is music on television. It is so melodious that it makes me feel I will not get seperated from you for my whole life. Will you take my hand and walk with me till the end of life?

I miss you.

I am so sleepy. Perhaps I will go to bed in some minutes. Catch ya later.

"My Universe will never be the same I'm glad you came "

I like this song. Mama usually says I could not get married because I could not be a healthy mother and wife, but in the near future I would overcome my sickness and do good things as what a married woman does.

"I am a woman in love, and I do anything to get you into my world, and hold you within. It's right I defend over and over again"

I love this song too.

Would you like to be my love? Mr T is the expected candidate hahaha

Tears do not run down my face because I am lucky with the love of my beloved. I am not too lucky but happily have those in my life. Will you take my hand and walk with me till the end of life?

I love Mr T, it's a burning flame. I love parents, it's my heart. I love all the people who have a heart.

Mr T, will you meet me that day? We will have a long talk to carry what has been going on our minds, would be very close.

See you next public meeting.

Yesterday I intended to go to the public meeting of mr T today and have planned everything. But after asking my mom for permission, she denied my request with the usual reason: "It's a waste of money. You are old but still fun-loving. What do you go there for?". I knew the answer but am still disappointed when hearing it. I am waiting for the next meeting but my parents usually suppose it is useless to watch Mr T in public meetings. What can I do? My activities are closely controlled by my parents. I do not know what to do.

I am sorry, Mr T. I know it is not my fault but it is pity. Anyway you have known how hard I have tried to come to you but there have always been some problems. I think I better wait for your contact. You and your sister may feel disappointed but I could do nothing about it. Again, I am sorry.

I'm having lunch now. See you Mr T.

There is not much to say, I just want to express my feelings. Until now I have not known for sure whether that nickname is Mr T or not. But I have said all things necessary to Mr T. I do not think they are uesless.

Mr T seemed very glad on his wc, I may view more of his on the coming wc but those could not tell me wheher Mr T was dispappointed or not. I may like this thread or that thread but I am still not sure if that is mr T's. But the thing is, Mr is happy now. That is important.

I may write more in the next threads, but now it's time for dinner and going to the pagoda.

I'm in love with a man who is very sentimental, but who knows how many ladies are in love with him too. I did not mean he has a choice, but he may have had some sentiment for another lady when I turned around. I knew this through his attitude on wc and some posts he made on this forum, but I have to take him back for me because I know I need him and he still loves me. If I have not come back to him, I might have lost a chance of happiness. In ad***ion, he may not give me any more chance since he has given me many.

I will come back later.

So tired from working continually for several days, I cease work to write something to Mr T even thougth writing English uses up my energy, but because I have decided to express my feelings in English.

My dad will understand my amusement right now because I have been exhausted from working, it is now time for relaxation (not so relaxing with English composition but I accept it).

Well, as far as I have learnt, you are not so pleased with my absence of care for you during the past few days. But I swear I did not mean to do that. The reason is, I have had to work many hours during those days and even for the days ahead. That is why I did not concern myself with you and now I am sending my apology to you, for making you feel like empty

Once in love, I never leave an emtiness in my beloved's heart and always try to fill his heart with care and sentiment. But due to some distance reason, I neglect you for some time, please understand me. I did not mean to sadden you with my absence. I alway think of you and try to have as much view of you as possible. You may not know it, but on that "direct" day, you could see how glad I was to have wc with you at home, and see you publicize. I could see you smile at that moment. I am happy.

Will you take my hand and walk with me till the end of life? I like this statement, so I repeat it. Thanks for your clip, I love it. And bear in mind that I never forget about you for any moment of my days. Whenever I have free time, I search for your old wc and view them with pleasure. Youmay not know it, but it is true. So do not ever feel like I do not care for you. I do. Love is sent from me to you by God.

Care and love

Sarah

Mr T, I could not receive your message to group again. Did you blacklist me? What did I do that is wrong to you? I have made no mistake. I'm confused.

I have registered to join the group again but received no answer. Wouldn't you like me to be able to receive your message more?

If I have misunderstood you, I'm sorry. But if you have blacklisted me, please state a reason. Did you misunderstand me or something?

I'm sorry Mr T. If I feel tired, you are more tired than I am. But I am confused because you have been so upset. I just wanted a confirmation, I did not mean to blame you. You said I did not understand you but you do not understand what I need either. I did not mean to create a distance. I do not understand all what you wrote and I was surprised at your attitude. But I was wrong again, right? You have made me upset, as I did it to you with my previous thread.

Maybe I have not understood you well, I do not know what you need. But what have I been doing with watching your wc day by day, no matter if it was old or new, watiing for your care and expression? I said I could not participate in the parties, so have been waitng for any wc you made. I just did what I could, that is to wait for you. But you day by day made me wait and wait. Sometimes I feel like I am in fancy. But I still wait. You never know what I hope a word from you. But you just blame me for all of the mistakes that I even did not know, like a neglect of your family members. What else did I do wrong?

I wanted to say sorry but your words have made me unable to. I just feel frustrated now. I know better that i should be calm with you, be gentle with you, be more patient with you. But now my feeling is up the ceiling. You may say you sacrifice it to get along well with me, well it's just your self. You always said you love me, I know but I need a direct contact. Have you ever given it to me? You may say I did not try, I did. But all I could do is waiting for you. Will you understand that circumstance?

I know too that it's no good to get angry with you. But I could do no better. I know it's better to say sorry, but you have pissed me off.

Okay I'm sorry. But at this time I'm no gentle any little bit.

Sorry I have to turn on the wapter pump. I'll catch you later. Sorry.